[tricia keegan]

I was'nt going to drag up the past week again but feel it may be appropiate on this thread to mention something that made me feel a little better about this week.
When I went to Carols funeral Monday she had written a letter to be read out, one of the things she said is that she was happy her children and hubby were settled and going to be okay and that she was going to a pain free place to wait for them. She said she had no fear whatsoever and only relief she had managed to stay alive and one step ahead of cancer for so long.
The honesty of the those words touched me and her sister in law later told me Carol herself had decided (having taken her xeloda Fri am)that she was tired and would'nt take it again. Two hours later she had passed peacefully in her sleep. I really believe she made the decision to stop not that the disease had taken her and that sheer will and determination alone had kept her going for so long.
Sorry this is long, but it made me accept all this a little easier this week and thought maybe it may help some one else too.
Andi, wonderful post and amazing words which do indeed help also..