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Mary Anne in TX · 04-20-2008, 11:32 AM

Sherry, when my mother died it was very painful and difficult. Her body shut down because she could not swallow(PSP). The last night I don't know who was in more pain, her or me. I just about lost it. The nurse asked me if I had prayed, which made me really mad cause I'd been praying, but when I thought about the fact that there was nothing else, I grabbed her hand and my husband's hand while he grabbed mom's other hand and we prayed and prayed. I prayed til I had relief and once more had trust in God's goodness and wisdom. Boy, had I lost track of my faith! After praying, I just opened the bible and began to read to mom. Her labored breathing eased and my heart returned to a place of staying in the moment and being there for her. It wasn't easy, but when I cried out to God, He heard and comforted us all. I'll pray for you and your brother and for God to send some angels to surround him and keep him safe from nighmares and fears. And for you to find a place of acceptance and peace and trust. Pour out your love to him Sherry, it's hard for fear and love to abide together. Read to him, sing to him, just love him openly and with all that's in you. You need peace as much as he does. God bless you and keep you strong. Much love and prayers, ma

04-20-2008, 11:32 AM	#17
Mary Anne in TX Senior Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: San Antonio, TX Posts: 2,357	Nothing is harder Sherry, when my mother died it was very painful and difficult. Her body shut down because she could not swallow(PSP). The last night I don't know who was in more pain, her or me. I just about lost it. The nurse asked me if I had prayed, which made me really mad cause I'd been praying, but when I thought about the fact that there was nothing else, I grabbed her hand and my husband's hand while he grabbed mom's other hand and we prayed and prayed. I prayed til I had relief and once more had trust in God's goodness and wisdom. Boy, had I lost track of my faith! After praying, I just opened the bible and began to read to mom. Her labored breathing eased and my heart returned to a place of staying in the moment and being there for her. It wasn't easy, but when I cried out to God, He heard and comforted us all. I'll pray for you and your brother and for God to send some angels to surround him and keep him safe from nighmares and fears. And for you to find a place of acceptance and peace and trust. Pour out your love to him Sherry, it's hard for fear and love to abide together. Read to him, sing to him, just love him openly and with all that's in you. You need peace as much as he does. God bless you and keep you strong. Much love and prayers, ma __________________ MA in TX. Grateful for each and every day.... Diag. 12/05 at age 60 Stage II, Grade 3, 4.5 cm primary tumor ER/PR- Her2 +3 strongly positive Her2 by FISH 7.7 amplified vascular invasion Ki67 20% borderline Jan - March '06 Taxotere/Adriamycin X 3 to try to shrink tumor - it grew April '06 Rt Modified Radical Mas, 7 of 9 nodes positive April - Aug. '06 Herceptin/Taxol/Carboplatin X 8 (dose dense) Sept - Dec. '06 Navelbine/Herceptin x 8 (dose dense) Radiation & Herceptin Jan. 22 - March 1, 2007 Finished Herceptin Dec. 10 '08! One extra year. Port removed August, 2012. 8 1/2 years since diagnosis! 5 1/2 Years NED!