[kcherub]

Gosh, ya'll. Thanks so much. I just want to cry you are all so sweet. I left a message with my ONC this morning, and am waiting to hear back from them. I did try an "experiment" this morning--I took a full .25 (huge dose, I know LOL) Xanax, and haven't been feeling as breathless. I guess everything is just getting to me (all at once). It would be nice if there was some sort of "stress prize" for people (and their families) with cancer. We should get a "pass" on everything else that stresses us out.

I seem to be living in 30-day cycles...I have some "issue", then find out it's nothing and have a few weeks of not really worrying. Then, something comes up that could be something related to cancer. Why can't I have some symptom that in NO WAY could be related to cancer? It is true--you totally forget what normal aches, pains and symptoms are. It sucks a big butt. Giggle, giggle.

Bill--no worries on the smoking "lecture". I have tried the patch (which worked wonderfully, but made me break out so bad I had to stop), the gum (which made me throw up), and the lozenge, which didn't work and gave me heartburn. I told my husband it would be nice if they could put me in a drug-induced coma for about three weeks, and when I woke up, wouldn't want a cigarette! I was planning on quitting last March 26, the day we were supposed to see our RE to plan on another baby. Instead, I was having a biopsy that day. Yuck. I do have my eyes on the prize, and know that I will kick it eventually.

Have a great day everyone!