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Andrea Barnett Budin · 03-06-2008, 02:03 PM

Joan, thank you. I have seen those powerful words about WHAT CANCER CANNOT DO before. A copy of it was in one of my oncologist's offices. I had a nurse Xerox it for me. It's in one of *my piles*, someplace around here. I am soooo glad to have it in front of me now!

I derived great strength from what I realized that canser

can't do. It helped my mental imagery (that was hooked on how all-powerful this nasty disease is) gain ground. I have learned to *use* LOVE and the SERENITY that comes from BELIEVING in the power of my thoughts and my ability to control my thoughts (versus the other way around) -- to heal and stay healthy and well. THIS AWARENESS IS A REMARKABLE TOOL. And that was a huge Lesson for me! It took me over half a century of living to discover we could actually do this! I had thought I was a helpful victim of my haunting, taunting thinking and the images that plagued me.

I have found that we are each awesomely PERSONALLY EMPOWERED! What a Life Lesson!

It is wondrous that canser can't invade my Soul, conquer my Spirit or steal eternal life! I KNOW this is true, deep in my heart. It resonates.

I just want everyone to read your post, Joan! May those ideas permeate your consciousness, my Sisters, and give you the courage and resolve to keep moving forward...

Sending loving, healing energy to you all,
Andi

03-06-2008, 02:03 PM	#32
Andrea Barnett Budin Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: LAND OF YES! w/home in Boca Raton, Florida Orig from L.I., N.Y. Ever hovering IN THE NOW... Posts: 1,904	Joan, thank you. I have seen those powerful words about WHAT CANCER CANNOT DO before. A copy of it was in one of my oncologist's offices. I had a nurse Xerox it for me. It's in one of my piles, someplace around here. I am soooo glad to have it in front of me now! I derived great strength from what I realized that canser can't do. It helped my mental imagery (that was hooked on how all-powerful this nasty disease is) gain ground. I have learned to use LOVE and the SERENITY that comes from BELIEVING in the power of my thoughts and my ability to control my thoughts (versus the other way around) -- to heal and stay healthy and well. THIS AWARENESS IS A REMARKABLE TOOL. And that was a huge Lesson for me! It took me over half a century of living to discover we could actually do this! I had thought I was a helpful victim of my haunting, taunting thinking and the images that plagued me. I have found that we are each awesomely PERSONALLY EMPOWERED! What a Life Lesson! It is wondrous that canser can't invade my Soul, conquer my Spirit or steal eternal life! I KNOW this is true, deep in my heart. It resonates. I just want everyone to read your post, Joan! May those ideas permeate your consciousness, my Sisters, and give you the courage and resolve to keep moving forward... Sending loving, healing energy to you all, Andi __________________ Andi BB '95 post-meno dx Invasive LOBULAR w/9cm tumor! YIKES + 2/21 nodes. Clear mammo 10 mnths earlier. Mastec/tram flap reconst/PORT/8 mnths chemo (4Adria/8CMF). Borderline ER/PR. Tamoxifen 2 yrs. Felt BLESSED. I could walk and talk, feed and bathe myself! I KNEW I would survive... '98 -- multiple mets to liver. HER2+ 80%. ER/PR- Raging, highly aggressive tumors spreading fast. New PORT. 9 mnths Taxotere Fought fire w/fire! Pronounced in cautious remission 5/99. Taxotere weekly for 6 wks, 2 wks off -- for 9 mnths. TALK ABOUT GRUELING! (I believe they've altered that protocol since those days -- sure hope so!!) + good old Vit H wkly for 1st 3 yrs, then triple dosage ev 3 wks for 7 yrs more... The "easy" chemo, right?! Not a walk in the park, but not a freight train coming at 'ya either... Added Herceptin Nov '98 (6 wks after FDA fast-tracked it for met bc). Stayed w/Vit H till July '08! Now I AM FREE! Humbly and eternally grateful for this life-saving drug! NED since '99 and planning on keeping it that way. To hell w/poor prognosis and nasty stats! STOPPED VIT H JULY '08...! REMAIN STABLE... Eternally grateful...Yes is a world & in this world of yes live (skillfully curled) all worlds ... (e e cummings) EVERY DAY I BEAT MY PREVIOUS RECORD FOR # OF CONSECUTIVE DAYS I'VE STAYED ALIVE. Smile KNOWING you too can be a miracle. Up to me and God now...