[Alaina]

Hello there,

I can only imagine how you are feeling right now. You said you are alone, does that mean that you dont have a husband, children or parents living with you? I know sometimes with friends they are not able to understand the pain etc.

Well, here are my thoughts. You are not alone ever because you have God, all His angels and saints. He created you specifically and loves you more than any person ever could or will.

When I was diagnosed at the age of 35 with stage IV, IBC, I was devastated. My children were 1, 3 and 3. I just could not believe I was going to die and not get to raise my babies. A St. Theresa prayer was sent to me and I said it for all cancer patients. A few days later I got the most beautiful roses. I then looked up St. Theresa because I had rememebered that she will send you a rose if she can help you with your prayers etc. Well, I read about her and how her life was changed forever at the age of 4 when her mother died of breast cancer. For me, it was a sign.

Here is what I would ask you to do. You have nothing at all to lose. Go to a place where you can be alone and peaceful. Get down on your knees and ask God to come into your heart. Tell Him you need him and that you dont know where to start and ask Him to show you. You are His child and your requests WILL NOT fall on deaf ears. Ask Him for peace and guidance. That is all you have to do, take the first step.

I wish you well in this journey. Remember, new meds are being tested as we write and no one knows when the cure will be found. Have hope!!! Have faith!!! Love, your sister in this battle, alaina