I type. I stop. I read. I am just moved to respond. So, I just have to say -- Leslie, I know what you mean. Those who tell me, You'll be fine! I hope so, I respond on my weak days, as I'm working through the darkness. You've done it before -- you'll do it again. THAT'S when I want to strangle them. Like doing a triathlon every day for a year, or more. You did it before... They have no clue!
BTW, when I have those Will I ever again moments, I indulge for a while, feeling remorseful and miserable, then I wake up! I go right to I WILL do this or that again! With resolve. And passion. And stubborn determination. (I come from a long line of stubbornness...) Suffering comes when we struggle!, I have learned. When we consciously choose not to give in to the possibility of NEVER, we become filled with defiant energy vs defeatist energy. We gain some control over our lives. We breathe some life into hope. We dare ourselves. We set goals. We do not constrict ourselves to limitations. And we do that, one day at a time. One step at a time. Like if you were wearing a long really tight straight skirt that only allowed you to take baby steps. You just keep inching your way forward... I'M CHEERING for (and praying for and applauding) you LESLIE! You will staple gun again! I picture Scarlett O'hara standing before her burned house on the plantation, with a potato in her raised hand -- resolute and strong!
Sending loving energy to all my Sisters and Bros... ALWAYS, you amazing group of extraordinary people...
Andi 