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Andrea Barnett Budin · 09-13-2007, 10:55 AM

I have a lousy cold. It's *just* a cold, but I feel wiped out, beyond listless, unable to speak (people on the phone keep asking me if they woke me up) and unable to think. I spoke to my sweet daughter Pami. She said my body is purging itself of all that is unwanted, cleaning house so to speak. So my perspective changed. I now feel joyful! And I see my ordinary struggle to get through the day as less burdensome and more in the *necessary* column, getting all the clogged areas open. You can't control the wind, but you can adjust your sails...

Andi

09-13-2007, 10:55 AM	#123
Andrea Barnett Budin Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: LAND OF YES! w/home in Boca Raton, Florida Orig from L.I., N.Y. Ever hovering IN THE NOW... Posts: 1,904	Attitude Adjustment I have a lousy cold. It's just a cold, but I feel wiped out, beyond listless, unable to speak (people on the phone keep asking me if they woke me up) and unable to think. I spoke to my sweet daughter Pami. She said my body is purging itself of all that is unwanted, cleaning house so to speak. So my perspective changed. I now feel joyful! And I see my ordinary struggle to get through the day as less burdensome and more in the necessary column, getting all the clogged areas open. You can't control the wind, but you can adjust your sails... Andi __________________ Andi BB '95 post-meno dx Invasive LOBULAR w/9cm tumor! YIKES + 2/21 nodes. Clear mammo 10 mnths earlier. Mastec/tram flap reconst/PORT/8 mnths chemo (4Adria/8CMF). Borderline ER/PR. Tamoxifen 2 yrs. Felt BLESSED. I could walk and talk, feed and bathe myself! I KNEW I would survive... '98 -- multiple mets to liver. HER2+ 80%. ER/PR- Raging, highly aggressive tumors spreading fast. New PORT. 9 mnths Taxotere Fought fire w/fire! Pronounced in cautious remission 5/99. Taxotere weekly for 6 wks, 2 wks off -- for 9 mnths. TALK ABOUT GRUELING! (I believe they've altered that protocol since those days -- sure hope so!!) + good old Vit H wkly for 1st 3 yrs, then triple dosage ev 3 wks for 7 yrs more... The "easy" chemo, right?! Not a walk in the park, but not a freight train coming at 'ya either... Added Herceptin Nov '98 (6 wks after FDA fast-tracked it for met bc). Stayed w/Vit H till July '08! Now I AM FREE! Humbly and eternally grateful for this life-saving drug! NED since '99 and planning on keeping it that way. To hell w/poor prognosis and nasty stats! STOPPED VIT H JULY '08...! REMAIN STABLE... Eternally grateful...Yes is a world & in this world of yes live (skillfully curled) all worlds ... (e e cummings) EVERY DAY I BEAT MY PREVIOUS RECORD FOR # OF CONSECUTIVE DAYS I'VE STAYED ALIVE. Smile KNOWING you too can be a miracle. Up to me and God now...