[dhealey]

I think everyone on this board at one time or another was feeling the same as you. What helped me the most was continuing to work during treatment. No I am not super woman, it just helped me to not focus on the cancer. I still get freaked out about recurrence, but I try to set this aside and let the good lord worry about it. I started to feel depressed about 3 months ago, instead of going on a nerve pill (nothing wrong with that though) I decided to participate in the Avon Walk for the Cure in October, in Charlotte, NC. I started focusing on training and making my self healthy again. The walk is 26 miles one day and 13 the next. My daughters have helped me raise over $6000 and I can now walk over 20 miles on my long walk days. Yes I still have the aches and pains yes I am still getting herceptin treatments, but I am also doing something to help others like us and this makes me feel much better. I also decided it was time to buy my self something really nice for all the months of "Hell" this disease causes you to go through. I haven't had a car in the past year, was putting it off because I didn't think I would still be here. I decided last week and took the plunge and bought a car with a 6 year pay plan. Now I have to survive to pay for it. I just decided to start moving forward with my life. You too, will in time move on. Best of luck