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What a powerful thread! Thanks Sheila, for your honesty & willingness to begin it! And it's great news to see that you two have turned this thing around! Warrior power!
I sure do think cancer is about losing things....like breasts, security, hair, energy, some friends, etc.
But, I've lost some really great things too.....like:
the need to try to please everyone
the desire to be like everyone else
the fear of my family not being there for me (this was huge!)
the desire to have things others have
trying to do it all...thinking everything is My Job!
believing house work comes first
and thinking cancer is the worst thing...I've decided I'm really a very lucky girl (I think that's easier for me to say cause I'm 62 OR maybe cause cancer has made me finally grow up for real!)
I think for me the bestest thing about cancer has been learning to celebrate every single day and all the small wonderful things God put in this ol' world...most of all people like all of you!
I'm working to lose some more stuff this week...I still slip into the control stuff/having to know what's coming. Gotta get that one licked. It sure can rob me of the Good Stuff!
Not having any alcohol to finish (family FULL of alcoholics) yesterday I found a way to make having chocolate brownie for dessert a way to "finish" my lunch!
Love to all, mary anne
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MA in TX.
Grateful for each and every day....
Diag. 12/05 at age 60
Stage II, Grade 3, 4.5 cm primary tumor
ER/PR- Her2 +3 strongly positive
Her2 by FISH 7.7 amplified
vascular invasion
Ki67 20% borderline
Jan - March '06 Taxotere/Adriamycin X 3 to try to shrink tumor - it grew
April '06 Rt Modified Radical Mas, 7 of 9 nodes positive
April - Aug. '06 Herceptin/Taxol/Carboplatin X 8 (dose dense)
Sept - Dec. '06 Navelbine/Herceptin x 8 (dose dense)
Radiation & Herceptin Jan. 22 - March 1, 2007
Finished Herceptin Dec. 10 '08! One extra year.
Port removed August, 2012.
8 1/2 years since diagnosis! 5 1/2 Years NED!
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