[madubois63]

Sheila - You've gotten some AMAZING advise, but let me add that you can call CancerCare too. They have volunteers that will drive you. One person can drive you, and one person can pick you up. Please don't feel like a burden to everyone. When you get better, you can volunteer and help someone else. When I first got sick and had to leave my job, money was nearly non-existent. Christmas was so sad for me, but a local church came through and brought us presents and food. Another organization bought coats for my kids and more presents. I cried and cried because I felt like I was taking advantage. Then I remembered that I have given to so many organizations over the years, and this was my pay back. I had danced for 24 hours, walked miles and miles for this or that and even stayed awake for nearly a week (I did hallucinate) to raise money for battered women. Right now, I just do little things as pay back. If someone needs a dollar, I give. If a woman walking with four kids needs a ride, I drive her. If a newbie writes me in the middle of the night, I call her. You need to do this one thing to help your husband and yourself. When you were driving yourself, it was easier for your husband to forget (or put aside) the thoughts of loosing you. Watching it must be horrible. And this past weekend was very important. You have to make the effort to put cancer on the back burner for a few hours and be people. I am so glad you had that time! Make more of it. Please remember cancer HATES the sound of laughter.