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Sheila,

I'm so sorry to hear the problems you are having. Yes, we gain weight, lose our hair, lose a breast and sometimes two, but we are still the person we were before this dreadful disease got a hold of us. I don't have a husband or significant other to lean on but I do have a wonderful daughter. Now that I'm back on weekly treatments she takes me to every one of my appointments. She does work from home on Thursday and that is the day of my treatment. It works out good as she takes her laptop with her and manages to get some work done while I sleep from the premeds. Your husband is probably very angry -- not at you -- but at this disease and what it has done to you. You are a very brave woman and have given some many on this site such support and compassion. If possible, I think you and your husband should sit down and try and talk about how this is affecting not only him but you as well. It's hard being the patient and sometimes I think it's even harder on the caregiver. I know with my daughter I was always very strong and here I am the complete opposite. Just know Sheila you have many women here for support and a shoulder to cry on. I just wish I were closer to you -- I'd give you a great big hug! Hang in there, things will get better.