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Dearest Sheila,
I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I can feel your pain through your words. I wish I could hug you. You are a rock to this community. You are there for so many. I think we all have a right to have our moments of sorrow. We do lose a lot but we have a place to share our fears and sorrows with those who are right there with us. That allows us to keep on trucking along. Our husbands, on the other hand, being the men that they are, have no one to share their thoughts with. They have to show the world that they can handle anything. Underneath it all, they are in pain too.
Have you tried to talk about your concerns with him? I know my would just blow me off. How would yours react? Maybe the reminders of what use to be are his way of trying to have something else in common with you other than driving to doctors offices and other medical appointments. You should try and see how far you get if you bring it up. I know that I usually make things bigger than they are and make myself sick with worry. This is not a time for you to be stressed.
Please know that you are loved, respected and cherished by many. I know it's not the same as seeing it from your husband, but for now maybe it's enough to put a smile on your face.
With much love and caring,
Ita
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