[Believe51]

We have had these talks over the last year and I am so happy that we did. I have promised him that I shall survive and need to go on, that he can count on me to continue to make differences here on earth while I still have the chance. We have talked about 'that time' and he will know when that is. Sherry, I told him he has to tell me when he is too tired to fight, when the pain is too unbearable, when the fight is gone...I told him I would motivate and push him UNTIL he said "NO MORE". I know myself and I will let go and even if I thought I could not, I would have to. I never thought I could handle this journey we are on either, but look at us now. As a patient I know there comes that time when the fight is gone. As a caregiver I know the time comes for me too that seeing him like that is too much to bear. I know at his burial I will know and say..."He is not suffering anymore, he is doing God's work now".

On a happy note, I went to the cemetary to see our site and it is all I wanted it to be and more. We wanted the same thing so when he was feeling well about 5 weeks ago he reserved the spot with his mom. Gorgeous trees deep surround us and we are going to plant our own tree. I hope they let me have a Dogwood tree, I have fond memories of my Meme's house and those trees. (messy but gorgeous) They are one of my favorites. Tomorrow I want to reserve my stone....black granite with many features including two vases right on it and a locket on front that will have our pictures in it. So happy to have this closure!!

Thanks for your input, I appreciate it. Big hug and loves.>>Believe51