[Believe51]

When I first read this post I was breathless, I could not find any words to express myself about my love for this family of mine. As you know I usually not at a loss for words and Nicola really has me running to save that reputation. LOL!! I had to read it over and over because I could not believe this was happening to little 'ole me. I originally joined this group in March of this year under the alias Marie G and after the computer hijack and the different course of hubby's journey I decided to start fresh with a strong, demanding name that would sum up this journey and who I am....and that is how Believe51 was born!!! LOL (the 51 was Ed's age when joining).

I am truely touched how this family has not only educated me, but how they have helped me to grow and attack cancer!! Your spirit and beauty have always helped me to become this warrior for my husband. Through the last several months I have taken great pride in all of my friends here and always follow their journeys in my mind daily. The prayers are always said, the positive energy always flows, the love will forever be everlasting, candles always burn with sweet thoughts of "My Girls". Probably something you do not know about me...I am territorial!! LOL. Each day I wake up and hear what is going on with my friends part of me wants to get into a car, bus, train, plane just to give a hug. Never did I think that you all know how I need those hugs too, that I have lived my life without you all and that makes me wonder HOW??

I shall always remain here close to heart with everyone and this is extremely important to my husband as well as for me. This is the only place I can come and be myself. My true self. As we know life is full of formalities and some things we have to hide. My post yesterday was a little sad and I asked you not to cry. How true it is to say that was an unreasonable request to ask from you all. When we are our 'true selves' and tell our stories they are pure, they are from the bottom of our souls.

Thank you for the gesture of kindness and support, I feel a bit guilty knowing that you are all living with cancer and you are concerned about me and my welfare. Little 'ole me!! (tears). You all here continue to rescue me from the darkest corners of our journey, you have softened every blow. Continually catching me before I fall and wiping off my knees. In my visualization of you Loves I feel you all wipe my tears and kiss my face. I watch you all recognize my feelings and accept me for the passionate person I am.

Thank you all for sharing this journey with us and for allowing us to join yours. The feelings that go along with cancer are sometimes personal, not here, not in our home!! I take pleasure loving you all. I am honored to have you all in my life. You all never cease to amaze me and you always shall. I am still besides myself and very speachless. Again, thank you for picking us up and giving us life. Cancer has potentially taken some time off the end of his life, but you have all given it back to us.

Thank You All For Being The Wind Beneath My Wings!!

I feel so much better than I did yesterday and that is all thanks to you, deeply indebited forever!! Our love for you all grow with each passing day!! How blessed we all are!!>>Believe51