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Mary Anne in TX · 08-19-2007, 04:54 AM

I totally relate to what you said! But after 20 months, I have found that I have a real advantage over life before! I really do know how precious the minutes are! I make more time for my grandkids and do the things that will give them good memories. I tell people I love them more often. I give more hugs. I make more phone calls to encourage people. I've given things away that encumbered my life! I'm getting free! As the news came that Dean might hit the Corpus area on the coast of Texas (we're just minutes away), I began to pack my "precious" belongings! We have our granddaughter so she was packing too! I drive a smallish car, and we got it all in...the precious things, I mean! My mom's bible, my grandmother's "Streams in the Desert" with all the family info, my great, great (lots of greats) granddaddy's Civil War Sword, my first bible, and of course some pictures. I was amazed at how little I really picked!
A friend told me recently that she has seen that I am giving much away! It's not because I think my death is near! I'm like the rest of these warriors, I plan to stick around a good long time to watch the results of so much research work it's magic! But things rob me of freedom!
Your pain is understandable and it does creep in on me sometimes. But it no longer stays. I know that with this bc monster came an incredible gift of appreciation of what I have and the freedom to live my life simply and fully!
Best wishes and please know that we are all cheering for you and here to listen when you need us. These are very caring and wise warriors on this board! ma

08-19-2007, 04:54 AM	#3
Mary Anne in TX Senior Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: San Antonio, TX Posts: 2,357	I totally relate to what you said! But after 20 months, I have found that I have a real advantage over life before! I really do know how precious the minutes are! I make more time for my grandkids and do the things that will give them good memories. I tell people I love them more often. I give more hugs. I make more phone calls to encourage people. I've given things away that encumbered my life! I'm getting free! As the news came that Dean might hit the Corpus area on the coast of Texas (we're just minutes away), I began to pack my "precious" belongings! We have our granddaughter so she was packing too! I drive a smallish car, and we got it all in...the precious things, I mean! My mom's bible, my grandmother's "Streams in the Desert" with all the family info, my great, great (lots of greats) granddaddy's Civil War Sword, my first bible, and of course some pictures. I was amazed at how little I really picked! A friend told me recently that she has seen that I am giving much away! It's not because I think my death is near! I'm like the rest of these warriors, I plan to stick around a good long time to watch the results of so much research work it's magic! But things rob me of freedom! Your pain is understandable and it does creep in on me sometimes. But it no longer stays. I know that with this bc monster came an incredible gift of appreciation of what I have and the freedom to live my life simply and fully! Best wishes and please know that we are all cheering for you and here to listen when you need us. These are very caring and wise warriors on this board! ma __________________ MA in TX. Grateful for each and every day.... Diag. 12/05 at age 60 Stage II, Grade 3, 4.5 cm primary tumor ER/PR- Her2 +3 strongly positive Her2 by FISH 7.7 amplified vascular invasion Ki67 20% borderline Jan - March '06 Taxotere/Adriamycin X 3 to try to shrink tumor - it grew April '06 Rt Modified Radical Mas, 7 of 9 nodes positive April - Aug. '06 Herceptin/Taxol/Carboplatin X 8 (dose dense) Sept - Dec. '06 Navelbine/Herceptin x 8 (dose dense) Radiation & Herceptin Jan. 22 - March 1, 2007 Finished Herceptin Dec. 10 '08! One extra year. Port removed August, 2012. 8 1/2 years since diagnosis! 5 1/2 Years NED!