[Erin]

Krista,

I am soooo sorry you are having such a terrible time of it! My 4th was by far the worst, but possibly because I was so used to the bad feelings and had finally put together some interventions that worked for me. I cannot add much to what everyone else has said, except for the mood swings and "raging". I would talk to your onc, and perhaps a psychiatrist (not because you are crazy, but because I think they have more experience with the meds) about getting you something to help you relax. There is no point in suffering. This is a temporary situation that will end. You need help with dealing with these issues now, and you should not take no for an answer. I also think if you have good people around you that are willing to help with your son, you ought to take advantage of that. Our kids suffer from our bc too. Sometimes it can be a blessing for them to get some "time off".

Chemo is awful, and if you decide to do only four treatments, so be it. But, give it your best shot, I didn't think I could make it past 4 either, but I did it. Best of luck dear!