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Egbok
Andi, It is from Flori's post-Everything is Going to Be OK. I am at loose ends tonight, irritable and worried. Probably a little of feeling sorry for myself and guilt because I do. I am worried about the oncologist I am seeing tomorrow. I want to change but for some reason the change really scares me even though I know this oncologist is really good and compassionate, and will listen to me. I do need a second opinion. When I first got this diagnosis I felt like I didn't have time for a second opinion. I was so scared. Now I have had time to think.
I am worried about Dale, although what you told me makes me feel better. Flori is right about the regression. I think Dale tries to protect me or be manly or something but it ends up making me feel like he is mad at me. His health is not as good as I wish it were. He had sleep apnea undiagnosed long enough to damage his heart and he in also diabetic. We've been together for almost four years now and been married since Jan. Married in JAn. then I find out about the cancer. He has been so good to me but this has been very stressful for both of us. We've been friends for many years, I was matron of honor at his last wedding many years ago.
I tried to upload some pictures tonight but couldn't get it to work. I'll keep trying. Keep up your spirit. Keep dragging Paul and I'll drag Dale.
Leslie
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