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Andrea Barnett Budin · 06-24-2007, 07:30 PM

Hi Leslie, Though I get the point for sure, does EGBOK stand for anything in particular? Or is it more like GOBBLEDEEGOOK?

I have been told from my scans that I have a cyst in my right kidney. Nothing to be concerned about. Sometimes I move, twisting back from the front seat or to the night stand and I get this breathtaking gasping pain. It is the cyst. Not an issue they tell me. Filled w/fluid. I pray Dale's thing is like this. Annoying, sometimes painful, but nothing to be concerned about. Please let me know.

I also get a pain like that in the lower right abd area. I'm told repeatedly that it is scar tisse (from my tram flap reconstructive surgery). It has been yrs. Nothing visualized in scans (chest/abd/pelv) and transvaginal pelvc sonograms that I have ev 6 mnths. Scar tissue can be a pain, really. The price of having a manmade breast in my case.

Muscle strain can also be a source of pain, followed by fear and concern, naturally, which tenses the muscles and impinges on nerve endings, which is very painful. Tensing interferes with oxygen flow (ischemia) and can be really bad pain. (Learned all this from Dr. Sarno, The Divided Mind, and my personal experience w/him in '80/81. The man changed my life w/his pioneering insights!!) Of course, Dale wouldn't go to the doc. Such a man. Baby. Regression. Read Flori's post on that. Very enlightening.
A Knowing she shared!

Still have much to say to you. Went to emerg rm again last night for reinsertion of catheter for Paul. Couldn't pee. Drinking lots, on command by me! I AM TOUGH when I need to be! After insertion -- little or no pee. We waited for bld and urine tests, THINKING. Is it renal failute? Our minds were going every where. I was full of fear, which you know I consciously seek to avoid, experience, vent and dismiss re me, but re P, I was plain scared. Love the guy. Depend on the man. Can't imagine Life without him. Bottom line -- he will prevail, if I have to drag him over the finish line myself (w/him a full foot taller and bigger than me). Mothers have lifted cars to free their babes. I feel I could do anything to save the love of my life, stubborn though he is.

Keep me informed re Dale. And YOU. And I will get back to you on personal matters in detail. You have not left my mind. I relate in so many ways to you. Would love a picture of you, to go w/the name, but I feel close to you all the same. Much love, ANDI

06-24-2007, 07:30 PM	#23
Andrea Barnett Budin Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: LAND OF YES! w/home in Boca Raton, Florida Orig from L.I., N.Y. Ever hovering IN THE NOW... Posts: 1,904	Egbok = ???????? Hi Leslie, Though I get the point for sure, does EGBOK stand for anything in particular? Or is it more like GOBBLEDEEGOOK? I have been told from my scans that I have a cyst in my right kidney. Nothing to be concerned about. Sometimes I move, twisting back from the front seat or to the night stand and I get this breathtaking gasping pain. It is the cyst. Not an issue they tell me. Filled w/fluid. I pray Dale's thing is like this. Annoying, sometimes painful, but nothing to be concerned about. Please let me know. I also get a pain like that in the lower right abd area. I'm told repeatedly that it is scar tisse (from my tram flap reconstructive surgery). It has been yrs. Nothing visualized in scans (chest/abd/pelv) and transvaginal pelvc sonograms that I have ev 6 mnths. Scar tissue can be a pain, really. The price of having a manmade breast in my case. Muscle strain can also be a source of pain, followed by fear and concern, naturally, which tenses the muscles and impinges on nerve endings, which is very painful. Tensing interferes with oxygen flow (ischemia) and can be really bad pain. (Learned all this from Dr. Sarno, The Divided Mind, and my personal experience w/him in '80/81. The man changed my life w/his pioneering insights!!) Of course, Dale wouldn't go to the doc. Such a man. Baby. Regression. Read Flori's post on that. Very enlightening. A Knowing she shared! Still have much to say to you. Went to emerg rm again last night for reinsertion of catheter for Paul. Couldn't pee. Drinking lots, on command by me! I AM TOUGH when I need to be! After insertion -- little or no pee. We waited for bld and urine tests, THINKING. Is it renal failute? Our minds were going every where. I was full of fear, which you know I consciously seek to avoid, experience, vent and dismiss re me, but re P, I was plain scared. Love the guy. Depend on the man. Can't imagine Life without him. Bottom line -- he will prevail, if I have to drag him over the finish line myself (w/him a full foot taller and bigger than me). Mothers have lifted cars to free their babes. I feel I could do anything to save the love of my life, stubborn though he is. Keep me informed re Dale. And YOU. And I will get back to you on personal matters in detail. You have not left my mind. I relate in so many ways to you. Would love a picture of you, to go w/the name, but I feel close to you all the same. Much love, ANDI __________________ Andi BB '95 post-meno dx Invasive LOBULAR w/9cm tumor! YIKES + 2/21 nodes. Clear mammo 10 mnths earlier. Mastec/tram flap reconst/PORT/8 mnths chemo (4Adria/8CMF). Borderline ER/PR. Tamoxifen 2 yrs. Felt BLESSED. I could walk and talk, feed and bathe myself! I KNEW I would survive... '98 -- multiple mets to liver. HER2+ 80%. ER/PR- Raging, highly aggressive tumors spreading fast. New PORT. 9 mnths Taxotere Fought fire w/fire! Pronounced in cautious remission 5/99. Taxotere weekly for 6 wks, 2 wks off -- for 9 mnths. TALK ABOUT GRUELING! (I believe they've altered that protocol since those days -- sure hope so!!) + good old Vit H wkly for 1st 3 yrs, then triple dosage ev 3 wks for 7 yrs more... The "easy" chemo, right?! Not a walk in the park, but not a freight train coming at 'ya either... Added Herceptin Nov '98 (6 wks after FDA fast-tracked it for met bc). Stayed w/Vit H till July '08! Now I AM FREE! Humbly and eternally grateful for this life-saving drug! NED since '99 and planning on keeping it that way. To hell w/poor prognosis and nasty stats! STOPPED VIT H JULY '08...! REMAIN STABLE... Eternally grateful...Yes is a world & in this world of yes live (skillfully curled) all worlds ... (e e cummings) EVERY DAY I BEAT MY PREVIOUS RECORD FOR # OF CONSECUTIVE DAYS I'VE STAYED ALIVE. Smile KNOWING you too can be a miracle. Up to me and God now...