Depression
This can strike any one going through what a cancer patient must endure. The pains and side effects deplete our energy, as we fight to rally. Dx in '95 w/4th stage invasive lobular carcinoma + 2 nodes (a 9cm tumor), mastec, tram flap reconstr, I did okay. I figured, just get through these 8 mnths and then go on w/life. I had a great attitude and was certain of my survival. In '98 I had multiple tumors into my liver. I was stunned. I told my doc right off, I need something to help me get through this. He prescribed Ativan, which is a mood elevator, and that worked for around 3 mnths. I was HER2+ with a highly aggressive cancer and a really poor prognosis. I had pain everywhere, was shaky, wobbly, lightheaded, weak and weary. Taxotere was killing the cancer cells, but my body was very much in the way. The doc then added daily anti-depressant. I swear it just lifted me up. I sing as go about my day. I didn't dance while on the Taxotere, but now that I'm on Herceptin every 3 wks (triple dosage), I swing and sway. Some of us need help. It's nothing to be ashamed of. I read plenty of spiritual self help books which did a lot with my mental perspective. These bks were life-altering and enriched my life immeasurably. Iyanla Vanzant, Wayne Dyer... I feel connected to my Spirit and empowered. I journal daily. Writing your thoughts and feelings down is cathartic. Do everything you can to get back not only to the old you, but the new and improved you. I'll be praying for you... Sending loving, healing energy your way... ANDI
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