[rinaina]

Joy, I am sorry you are feeling so sad and blue once again but take comfort in knowing that we all from time to time slip back into that mode and certainly with the anticipation of getting scans and waiting for the results. Yes there is reason to hope and think that someday you will be done with this cancer...you have to have hope and think positive and never ever give up. You are so young with possibly many many years ahead of you to enjoy. It may be with continued treatment but you can do it. We are stronger then we think. Just look back at all you have conquered and continue to conquer. This is not the time to throw in the towel and give up. Periodic sadness and depression are normal and a part of all of this, but the majority of the time we are busy, productive and happier. If it ever gets where the majority of the time we are sad and depressed, then it is time to seek professional help. Staying well or reasonably well with cancer is so reliant on our attitudes and frame of mind too, not just the drugs. I hope you make a turn for the better and your days are filled with less sadness and worry.