[Andi]

I am so sorry to hear of your recurrence. I received my news of the beast rearing its head again right before Christmas. It's like going through the diagnosis all over again.. in some ways it was easier because I had a pretty easy time with the treatments I had taken before, on the other hand it is much worse, because once we recur, they no longer will promise you a cure. In the beginning that is a pretty scary outlook, but because of all of the ladies on this website that have been dealing with mets for a long time and living life pretty good, I have shed that fear and am facing this thing with a whole lot of hope. When I was visiting a patient in our local hospital, there was a sign in the gift shop that caught my eye and it reminds me of the attitude toward life that I read in so many posts on this web site - "Live A Good Life - in the end it is not the years in a life, but the life in the years" - Abe Lincoln. Of course, I am selfish, I want both. Keep posting and sharing your feelings, this is a great place to work through them. I will say a prayer for you.