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My Last Day
Well tomorrow I get my port in and have my first chemo. Why do I feel like this is the last normal day I will ever have? I just keep reading and reading and it just doesn't seem to stop. This drug causes heart failure, this mouth sores, this one acne and don't forget this one uterine cancer. Is this what our life is until we just die? I know I'm just scared of not knowing but I feel like this THING will define who I am from here on out. Everyday will be one treatment, or one side affect or one scan for the next 3 or 30 years. Someone please give me hope that there will come a day when I won't even think of breast cancer and my husband and I will not spend a day being dictated to treatments, med, and doctors visits. But instead have a normal day spending time together doing the things we love.
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DX IDC AT 42 12/7/06
2.2CM STAGE I GRADE 2
NODE NEG
PARTIAL 12/18/06
HER2+ /ER+(75%) PR+(5%)
4 DD AC CHEMO STARTING 1/10/07
4 DD Taxol Starting 3/5/07
1year weekly Herceptin starting 3/5/07
finished 2/18/08
changed to every 3 weeks 4/23/07
completed 33 radiation treatments 7/6/07
TAH and BSO 9/24/07
start Femarra 10/8/07
Started Neritinib trial 12/14/09
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