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Well, before I knew it, the room was full of people and they were comparing old scans. Those were clean. So after waiting an agonizing while, an x-ray was ordered and done. No better. Next I waited on a CT. By this time I was a basketcase. I think I even introduced myself as "Basketcase" to one of the CT techs. The original scan was at 10:30 this morning. At 6 pm I was still waiting and delirious. I had sent my friend home at 11 , because I thought it was all going to be routine. HA!
Long and short of it is they "don't think" its anything, but we have to check it again in 3 months. It was the best and worst day all in one. I'm on my second margarita (the only drink I've had in 8 months), and have been starting at the ceiling for the last hour. I have never felt so alive. I have never been so happy and so terrified in one day. The sky has never looked as beautiful as it did on the drive home. I have never cried so hard. I am exhausted. I LOVE THIS LIFE, I love feeling so alive. Cancer, as sick as this sounds, has been a blessing. It makes me appreciate all that I have and all those around me over and over.
I never did like rollercoasters, but this is sure one hell of a ride.
Love, Kelly
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dx'd 05/06, 37 years old
er/pr-, Her2+, grade 3
double mastectomy, immediate reconstruction- implants
Stage 2b, 2 tumors- 2.2 cm and 0.6 cm, 3/5 + nodes
all scans clear
genetic testing- negative
06/06 began dd A/C x 4, 12 weekly Taxols w/ Herceptin
30 rads
Herceptin weekly x 1 year
Herceptin completed 08/07
Port removed 12/26/07 MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!
05/17/08 Two year anniversary NED
"We gain strength, courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face... you must do the thing that you think you cannot do."
-Eleanor Roosevelt
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