[Barbara2]

Kelly, all that you are feeling is very very normal. We have all been there. Some of us have been more sick than others during treatment, but it will get better. The worst is behind you now, and you are nearing the end of treatment.

When you are finally on only herceptin, you will slowly begin to feel better. Some people feel tired with herceptin, too, but it is not nearly as bad as the chemo. It is easy to feel depressed and down when you are feeling so miserable. But as time goes on and you get stronger and stronger, you will start having days of feelilng almost "normal" again.

My suggestion to you would be to let go of the demands you are putting on yourself and take time for a little R&R. You said you are a preschool teacher. I can relate to that as I taught 1st and 2nd graders for many years. Even when I was in my 30's and healthy, I was often exhausted at the end of the day. By Friday I had melted into a puddle and needed the weekend to bring myself back! I loved teaching and had high expectations for the kids and myself, but when cancer came along, I regrouped knowing that new priorities needed to be put into place.

With the holidays coming up, that might be a good time for you to take a break from teaching. The kids are so wound up in December and with preschoolers a lot of time is probably spent with preparing for Christmas programs, and many many other activities. It is such a busy time. If you could be home from Thanksgiving through the new year, you would have time to enjoy your family, prepare yourself for the holidays, and get some well deserved rest.

This morning on the CBS morning program, their health segment was on what to do after treatment to keep yourself healthy and healing. This lady (name?)had witten a book (Title??). She said it is very important to allow yourself time to rest, sleep 8 hours a night, and watch your diet; eat healthy foods, little sugar.

With the treatment you are getting, you are likely to do very well. Have faith, and allow yourself time to start feeling better. Don't expect to do all that you could do before. Someday you may be back to where you once were , but for now..........let go, and let God be your guide.