Hi Kelly,
Don't be hard on yourself about feeling down right now. I personaly have discovered that I can feel bad, after chemo etc, and I can have very emotionally trying days, and survive both of them independently. BUT when I have a day where I am feeling bad, pain, nausua etc, and I am feeling weak emotionally at the same time, I crash and burn. You will rise above this funk you are in right now. I also believe in taking a break from the reading now & again, and only you know how much is enough. Many of us, myself included have small children. Mine are 6 & 9... when I am feeling bad, I try to turn it around in my mind and make an effort not to waste whatever time I have 5 minutes, 5 years or 50 years wasting opportinities to be the mommy the7 need. I don't cry in front of my hubby or children ever, in hopes to keep their lives as normal as possible, but when I am alone, somtimes a lot of crying to get it all out makes me feel better.
Sending warm thoughts your way
Susan V
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Susan V - Pittsburgh PA
DX Age 37 on August 3, 2006
Stage 1 Grade 3
ER/PR + (Highly Positive)
Her 2 +++
1.3 & 1.2 tumors right breast
node negative
lumpectomy 8-15-06
A/C Began 9-5-06 Finished A/C 11/6/06
Port Placement 9-15-06
Negative Test for BRAC1 & BRAC2 10-25-06
Began Tamoxofin November 21, 2006
First Herceptin November 27, 2006 Continues every 3 Weeks
First Radiation Treatment December 11, 2006
35 Rads Completed
Final Herceptin Treatment November 12, 2007
Port Removal November 19, 2007
Living Life to the Fullest !!
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