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I know that this is going to sound silly, but I don't like to feel like I am "slipping". The thought of not being able to do what I used to do scares me to death. My boss told me early on that she would save my job for me and pay me whether I came in or not (I am a preschool teacher). I think that is very sweet and I am moved by her guesture, but I don't like being treated like I am sick and want to do what I can. Here's where you say.... "you ARE SICK!" -(I get that from my hubby all the time). I feel like if I don't fight, that this thing is going to swallow me up whole. I also hate the "pity" looks and do my best to function normally. I have some issues, don't I ?
I also know that I need to rest and take care of myself and I do get a solid nights sleep and eat very well. We have no family here in town, so it is a little harder to keep up. My friends are truely angels sent from above and I am very grateful. I think that remembering how blessed I really am will help me alot right now. I am ashamed to say that sometimes I lose sight of that.
Thank you for your support. It has been wonderful to share my feelings with people who really understand and care.
Love,
Kelly
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