[rinaina]

It is only natural to be scared and worried and we all have been there. Try not to lose perspective though. Your treatment plan is the best for this and on this forum, the people who are most active are those who have had a recurrence but that is a scewed view. There are so many who have done so well and I am sure some of them will respond to your post. Most who do well aren't very active on the forum because their needs aren't as great but every now and the you will see a post from someone who hasn't been around for a while and they are a survivor of many years. There is something to be said by taking a break from reading too much. it is important to be informed however, if it starts to fill you with too much fear and anxiety, then it is time to stop reading for at least a while because those emotions are not healthy for you. It is important to try very hard to maintain a positive attitude. As for how you are feeling, I am so sorry you are having such a difficult time of it. I did to with chemo but now I am almost 2 full months out of my last chemo and doing much better. I am finishing with radiation next week and taking Herceptin every 3 weeks. Once chemo is over, you will feel much better. Hang in there and get all the rest you need. Don't read too much right now, it is better for you at this time to take it easy and concentrate on getting well.