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Please don't feel that you have to "shut up." Everyone on this board is dealing with cancer and the fears that go along with this disease. If I remember correctly you started the thread about what support systems people had. I think that was a great post and it amazes me everytime I read how much support women feel they derive from this board. Keep in mind that we all get frustrated at times which is perfectly natural. I sincerely hope that you can get your oncologist to listen to you. I think the idea of taping your visits is worth a try. I know that when I go to my oncologist I always have my questions written out and absolutely will not leave until I have answers. My oncologist sometimes seems to be in a big hurry and that's when I pull my paper with my questions out. I know it's a big expense to go out of network but maybe the time has come for you to try someone else. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Hope that you will soon get the answers that you need.