Thank you for your answers and also the possibility to vent for once....
I do feel better today. Took a day off work and went for a round of golf with my mum - being outdoors is always so helpful!

Btw, I do take antidepressants and since I started taking them life definitly has gotten a little less "rough" for me (and my friends and colleagues, I suppose... *grin*)

My husband just isn?t too much of help - but probably our problems are older than my dx....
It just sometimes is like you said: being on drugs I never know, if it is really "me" or the drugs ... you know what I mean?

But I will hang in there - after all I have made it so far and also I do count on the Herceptin a whole lot as my prognosis was pretty poor at the start and I have been NED for 2 years now.

Thanx ever so much for this Board - I read here very often even though I am not much of a writer - and it helps me get on!

greetings from the other end of the globe!
Alice