laureen aka laurie checking in
 

7 and 1/2 years out for me and doing fine. Sorry i have not checked in for awhile. My kids are getting big. Ryder just turned five in Feb and Lucy will be three in June. still cannot believe chemo cured my infertility and blessed me with the loves of my life. lymphedrma is still as nasty as ever and still contemplating lymph node transfer surgery. Survior guilt still hits me hard sometimes, why am i here when others are not. Fear of a reoccurance seems to keep me still question every little ache and pain. talked to other survivors recently and they have moved on and dont fight these feelings, gotta figure out how to channel these fears into something productive.

Re: laureen aka laurie checking in
 

Hey Laurie!

Thanks so much for checking back in. You are the Rock Star of Motherhood after chemo/treatment and are a light for many.

I think we all have that little box of recurrence fear that we have to look at every once in awhile. I think that is OK and maybe just keeps us on our toes-----just as long as we don't keep that box open all the time, spilling fear into our lives and robbing us of the joy of NOW.

Enjoy those wonderful children and congrats on a wonderful life!

Re: laureen aka laurie checking in
 

Hey!!! Its great to see that you are thriving. I can't believe the time has gone by and Ryder is already 5 years old. So much joy for you and for us here too. Thanks for popping in and letting us know how you are doing.

Re: laureen aka laurie checking in
 

It is so wonderful to see you and know you are well and your kiddies are getting bigger. I gave up wondering why and now just thank God everyday for the blessings of this life.

Re: laureen aka laurie checking in
 

Thanks for the update Laureen.
I can't believe how old the kiddos are - so terrific that you got them as a gift after BC.

all the best
caya

Re: laureen aka laurie checking in
 

So glad you are doing well, Laurie! Gosh time flies! I think the rear view cancer mirror never really leaves us. Those other gals are better at ignoring their fears than you, that's all. It is normal...our new (permanent) normal!

Re: laureen aka laurie checking in
 

Good to hear from you, Laurie.

It's good to stay vigilant. Thanks for checking in.