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I'm so sorry, Penny, for you and for your family. It's been such a hard road for you. It's so unfair, so wrong.

Shortly after I was diagnosed I got some CDs with guided meditations and affirmations. One of the affirmations brought me up short at first, and then I decided to embrace it, and it helped me. It said, "More and more, I know that I can heal myself and live, or I can heal myself and die. My wholeness does not depend on my physical condition."

You seem to have a very whole, healthy spirit. You've been so honest, open, and faithful. You have set a wonderful example for others to follow. I love and admire you.

The set of affirmations ended with, "More and more, I know that I am held in the hands of God, and I am perfectly, utterly safe."

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Hang in there, Penny. We're all pulling for you!

Ted

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Praying for you dearest Penny. I hope that you are comfortable and surrounded by love.

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Penny, sending so much love your way.

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Penny,

You are a wonderful woman, strong in faith, and my prayers are with you for continued strength and comfort.

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Penny, you continue to be in my prayers. Your spirit is so inspiring, and I'm sure bringing you much comfort.
Marie x

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Prayers for you from California.

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Love you all. There are not enough words.

- Penny

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We all feel the same way about you, Penny.

Amy said it best, this is just my second hand attempt to put into words that, no matter what happens, it is all ok.

Your Faith is so strong and it will not fail you.

Love,

Carol Ann

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Penny,

I'm holding you in prayer.

Love,
Amy

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Penny,
Hoping for a miracle. XOXO

Karen

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Love to you, Penny. Cathy

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Praying for you, Penny.

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Penny, I'm so sorry. Praying for you. Miracles happen.

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Penny, Humbled by your strength, thinking of you often, hoping for the best for you always. Love, Linda

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Words fail me....... YOU ARE STRONG IN YOUR FAITH AND HE IS WITH YOU ALWAYS.

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Penny,
Nothing can separate you from His love or from the hearts of your sisters here.
Praying for you,
Cindy

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Thinking of you often and sending prayers that you will be able to continue treatment and make a recovery.

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I am sending out MANY, MANY PRAYERS for you Penny.

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Prayers for you Penny.
Kim

Psalm 91: 14-16 "Because she loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue her; I will protect her, for she acknowledges my name. She will call upon me, and I will answer her; I will be with her in trouble, I will deliver her and honor her.
With long life I will satisfy her
and show her my salvation."

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Thanks, all. Just met with Holy Redeemer, palliative care nurses, who will "bridge" over to hospice once I need it. I can get treatment while in their care.

- Penny

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Dear Penny, you are in my heart and in my thoughts. I hope the new combo will help. You don't post how you are feeling and I figure you don't want to complain. You are so strong. A few weeks ago I ended up in ER for 4 days with crazy bili numbers because of a clogged stent. I didn't post about it but I really didn't feel well at all. So I hope they are taking good care of you and that you are not suffering. I am sending hugs and Love. Michka

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Penny, I am so glad you are getting the care you need. Like Micha, I am praying the Holy Redeemer nurses are keeping you free from as much pain and discomfort as they possibly can.

I know you are strong, but please don't feel like you can't be honest and tell us how you are really feeling. We are here for you, and it is not your job to make us feel better. I know you know this, but just sayin'. :)

We love you, Penny!

Carol Ann

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Dear Redwolff, I'm joining hands with the women here to send you strength during this difficult time. I'm so saddened to hear that things have taken a bad turn, but still hoping chemo will help. I wish you peace and love all around.

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Dear Redwolff, sending you love and prayers. So glad you can get chemo as they take care of you.
Lots of hugs coming your way, Catherine

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Thinking of you every day, Penny, and hoping for a good chemo response and a decrease in that pesky bilirubin.

I believe in miracles, and I hope with my whole heart that yours comes quickly.

Rhonda

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Dear Penny,

I think of you multiple times a day, and I always say a little prayer. May you feel wrapped in love.

Amy

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You have been through so much. I hope the treatment brings on a miracle. You're in my thoughts and prayers. Sending you cyber hugs.

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My heart goes out to you. Keep us posted on how you are feeling and when you are feeling down - close your eyes and pretend that we are all in the same room with you!

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I love Paula's/Saygoon's suggestion!

Envision us standing around you, laying our hands on you, praying with and for you.

Amy

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Thinking of you.
Cindy

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http://dendritic.info/

Penny,
I really want you to live. I'm taking a chance writing this for you. Weighing chemo and growth vs. healing, I say stop the chemo. Take the antibodies. And immediately look into dendritic cell therapy. Others have gotten out of their hospice beds. I know how hard you are praying, and I think this can help. PLEASE.
Love you,
With all best wishes.
Karen

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I'm still here. I read everyone's posts and inwardly celebrate or commiserate, depending upon the news. I try to remember to thank The Lord for each step of our journey. No matter what, there is a happy ending.

Monday being a holiday, my next appointment is on Tuesday. My bilirubin will determine whether or not I get chemo. I'm still jaundice, my eyes are yellow, and my urine is usually dark. The oncologist said this can be so even if the bilirubin comes down, so who knows what will happen. It is what it is.

I thank The Lord I was able to spend another beautiful day at the beach with good friends. Life is good.

Happy Memorial Day. Thank You, Lord, for those who've sacrificed for our freedoms.

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Dear Penny,

I've been reading all the messages with distress and hope. Keep strong and think positive. You just never know what can happen!

Janis

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No bilirubin results yet but I'm getting a lower dose of chemo. Should be out of here in an hour. NP can't believe I'm coherent. I believe in HIM.

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You are in my prayers, stay strong.

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Penny,

I hope the chemo helps. And I hope someone gets a bright new idea soon.

Stay in the light.

Love,
Amy

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Ditto what Amy just said, Penny! Praying for a miraculous intervention by the almighty!

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Bilirubin numbers are up. Sigh. Lord, have Mercy. PLEASE. In Jesus' Name, I pray. Amen.

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Penny, I am so sorry and will continue to pray for and your family. Sending you love, light and peace.
May the long time sun
Shine upon you,
All love surround you,
And the pure light within you
Guide your way on.