Gasping for breath...

[Gaver]

Hello everyone,

Just coming to this site is so wonderful ...Been having a bad day...dont know why but keep thinking about my mom not making it or even Herceptin not working for her...completely illogical I know but been going crazy since morning...Hve stopped thinking now...You should see my mom...I mean how strong can a person be ????? She is the one diagnosed gone thru a MRM with flying colours minimal whining,doing great guns recovering at home and Im the one going berserk with my stupid thoughts...

Still,just penning my thoughts down is a relief At least I can tell someone !!!

Sorry for the raving,ladies and gentlemen :)

Geetanjali.














11/10/2012 mom was diagnosed with a 3 x1.5 cm malignant lump in upper quadrant left breast with a 1x1.5 swollen left axilla node

12/10/2012 confirmed carcinoma left breast lump through FNAC

15/10/2012 CT Scan clear Bone Scan clear no Mets anywhere (Thank God)

16/10/2012 Core Biopsy Results show Grade III ER + 95% PR + 5% N Her2NEU +++

17/10/2012 doctor advised lumpectomy then chemotherapy then radiation but mom wanted a MRM(I just want it out of me!) Doctor has no isssues Says we do a MRM

23/10/2012 MRM done Entire breast along with level I n level II Axilla nodes removed.

next visit 06/11/2012 to get the staples removed and the drain removed....Doctor to decide on chemo meds on the basis of the biopsy result of the breast which is also due on 06/11/2012

[Jackie07]

Geetanjali,

Come here to 'vent' anytime! We are listening. I'm a survivor myself, but I've seen the anguish of my 2nd Sister when she was here taking care of me after my sugery in 2007.

There's another 'regular' caregiver (pibikay) who is also from India. You might have seen his postings about 'Hema', his beloved wife for many, many years. 'Loveher' has made many beautiful postings on the board while taking of her Mom. There used to be a 'psychologist' ('Colleen's Husband')posting about his wife's bc journey regularly. Haven't seen him for a while now that his wife has been cancer free. You will find many of them in the following thread: http://her2support.org/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=35015

'Breathing' is good. Always remember to breathe...

Sending you good vibes...

[NanaJoni]

Geetanjali - during the time we (I use "we" because of all the people I love and who love me that were affected by my cancer diagnosis) were actively battling against this awful disease, that I'd rather be the one with the cancer than watching someone I love deal with it. It's frustrating and infuriating - but that's okay. Whatever you feel - anger, sadness, fear - you need to let it happen and then use it to fight. Your mom is so blessed to have you with her. My daughter was able to empathisize with me in ways my husband couldn't. She has a daughter and that fear of this disease for the future can be terrible. But she helped me at the worst of times and we rejoice together today that we've come through such a trial together. Your mom seems strong because she can draw strength from you and others who care for her - but she'll have bad moments and days too. So sorry you are having these thoughts today but each day as you move forward will bring you closer to the time when she will be cancer free and healthy again. Come here anytime and let it all out - and you never have apologize to us.

[Gaver]

Dear Jackie and Jani,

I have nothing I can say for your encouragement and support but a heartfelt thank you...

mom's currently at the hospital with my brother checking about the staples the drain and waiting for the histopathology report to see about the extent of lymph node involvement and anything else...

will keep posting here !!!

Keep fighting and winning,Pink ladies !!!

Warm regards,

Geetanjali,Gaver's daughter one of the strongest women I know n a cancer fighter
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11/10/2012 mom was diagnosed with a 3 x1.5 cm malignant lump in upper quadrant left breast with a 1x1.5 swollen left axilla node

12/10/2012 confirmed carcinoma left breast lump through FNAC

15/10/2012 CT Scan clear Bone Scan clear no Mets anywhere (Thank God)

16/10/2012 Core Biopsy Results show Grade III ER + 95% PR + 5% N Her2NEU +++

17/10/2012 doctor advised lumpectomy then chemotherapy then radiation but mom wanted a MRM(I just want it out of me!) Doctor has no issues Says we do a MRM

23/10/2012 MRM done Entire breast along with level I n level II Axilla nodes removed.

next visit 06/11/2012 Mom s at the doctor right now with my brother and brother in law to get the staples removed and the drain removed....Doctor to decide on chemo meds on the basis of the biopsy result of the breast which is also due on 06/11/2012 ...waiting for th biopsy results which will let us know about lymph node involvement...Hoping for the best but prepared for everything.....

[Harpreet]

Ok, hello, everyone. Harpreet here. Geeta's brother and Gaver's son. I just wanted to let you all know that mom's staples were removed yesterday. And it was a very good day. We breathed easy and even prepared for the upcoming festival of Diwali that is next week. Today mom was going to go and meet a diabetologist and ask him questions on the TCH regime she is beginning on 16th.

However...

Today morning after her bath she noticed that the wound has a small opening of about an inch in the suture line.

It has no bleeds but it is open and so we are rushing her to casualty. Has anyone gone through this? Is this a sign of any complication? Will she require further stitches or just a sterie strip or a bandage? Should we push the chemo date back - I was constantly telling the doctor that she should be allowed some time to heal and we should start her chemo around November end at least, but he was insistent that the chemo start soon. I don't know what to do. If anyone could please advise.