I didn't Want You

[vickie h]

I didn’t want you
But one day you came anyway.

I hated you at my very core
You slept in my breast anyway.

I hugged myself and tried not to cry
My pillow case was soaked anyway.

I wanted to wash myself clean of you
I smiled when you left anyway.

I went about my life and willed you to go away
You haunted me anyway.

I never wanted to hear your voice again
You called me anyway.

I saw you again and tried to stay calm
I threw up anyway.

Herceptin lost 71 to 85 that game
Guess you thought you won anyway.

You were charmed by my innocence
You tried to take it anyway.

My confidence and strength inspired others
You crippled me anyway.

My smile stopped you dead in your tracks.
You overran me anyway.

I thought you were harmless
You hung to me anyway.

You tried to take my life away from me…scarred the deepest part of me
I am living everyday anyway.
I am loving life anyway.

[ElaineM]

Beautiful !!!!!!!

[Chelee]

Vickie, That really moved me to tears. I can relate to every part of of your poem. It is deep, & also beautiful.

Chelee

[Sheila]

Vickie, That poem was amazing...you deeply touched my soul this morning...thank you!!!!!!!!!

[vickie h]

Sheila, Chlee and Elaine, Thank you for you support always. I was lying in bed when I wrote this, watching a few plump, small brown birds play in the trees outside my window. I have so much hope for all of us.
I love you all,
Vickie

[Mary Anne in TX]

along with your hope, you have a courageous, wonderful heart! Thanks, Vicki! ma

[schoolteacher]

Vickie,

Your poem was very eloquent. You are truly a warrior.

Amelia

[chrisy]

Wow Vickie.

[Unregistered]

What a powerful poem and so beautifully said. You speak for so many of us today. I truly loved reading it. It brought tears to my eyes and left hope in my heart.
Laurie

[lkc Gumby]

Vicki, this is beautiful.

[Unregistered]

Vicki, Can I have your permission to copy this and take it to my support group in Alabama?
It took my breath away and I would love to share this with others. You are truly a gifted writer and a brave sister warrior. I came on to this site today feeling hopeless until I read your lovely poem. You have inspired me to keep going. I can't thank you enough.
Hugs, Laurie S

[suzan w]

Thanks for your beautiful poem, Vickie. As I look out at the Pacific Northwest drizzle...called "mizzle" here, mist+drizzle=mizzle, I will go out and do a little dance in the rain!!!

[Mary Jo]

I loved that Vickie...thanks for taking the time to post it. It speaks to all of us and truer words could not be spoken.

Peace to you...

Mary Jo

[IRENE FROM TAMPA]

It is beautiful - thank you so much for sharing it

[Shobha]

Hi Vickie,

I loved you poem. It is such stark truth about all of us on this journey!

May God bless you with a long life and full of smiles.

hugs,
shobha

[vickie h]

Thank you all my brave and wonderful sisters.
I wouldn't be here without all of your love and support and compassion, especially your prayers.
You mean the world to me, literally. I have yet to encounter a group of human beings filled with such an outpouring of love.
I truly love you all, now and forever.
Vickie

[juanita]

loved the poem!

[Unregistered]

Just Beautiful, Vicki!

Randi

[TriciaK]

Your poem is beautiful, and speaks for all of us. I needed this message today! Thank you! Hugs, Tricia

[Unregistered]

This site is new to me as I am with another bcmets support group, but I saw your posting here and thought it to be a sum of what we all have gone through. Very insightful and encouraging.

Ruth from Canada