Joy Column

[Believe51]

As you may know, last Monday June 23 was my birthday and my week started by eating mini cakes celebrating our friends birthdays. And I ate and ate and ate more cake as birthdays were arriving.

Well it is July 3 today and my boss and my staff got me a cake. I was out with Mighty Oak on my birthday and they thought they could throw me off by stalling. They did!!

I had told them how much cake I have eaten that week. Their reasoning for postponing the celebration was they thought I would say something like...."I am so full" or "Look how bloated I am"

Today's Joy: Not just getting remembered BUT I DID SAY THINGS LIKE THAT ALL WEEK TO EVERYONE HERE>It is good to know these people I work with know me so well.........well enough to figure out my demented mind!!...........Burp....Oooops! 'scuse me!! I am still laughing!>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Come on.....there must be someone out there with some joy to share. One of my joys is reading yours and I need to refuel. Tell us your joys>>Believe51

[notamrnpsn]

My joy was when my 6 month old grandson put both arms around my neck and hugged me. He is a Blessing, Jeanette

[Believe51]

Now that is what I am talking about. Thanks Jeanette, I needed that. Enjoy your lovely weekend and all the little things in life!!! Sending Love>>Believe51

[Kathy S in Tokyo]

Joy; the kids brought their report cards home from school yesterday and today is the first day of summer break.

[ElaineM]

I am happy about every birthday I celebrate, being able to do normal everyday things, accomplishing a goal, days with no side effects, hearing great medical news, spending time with good friends, hearing good music, watching a great movie, enjoying beautiful scenery and many other things. I am just thankful to be alive and kicking.

[dhealey]

Today's joy was celebrating my husband of 35 years, birthday (55) with most of the family here. Joy next week will be going to Seabrook Island to celebrate my grandson's 5th birthday. It will be a lovely weekend at the beach!

[Kathy S in Tokyo]

A neighbor gave us some free tickets to a nearby waterpark so I took three of the kids yesterday (one was off at a track meet). Most Japanese pools are only slightly deeper than my waist, in case people can't swim (and so many people never do learn to swim!), and my kids and their friends never have any chances to actually jump or dive into the water. This pool had a 5 meter deep diving pool with some low diving boards and a platform about as high as the old low diving board remember at our local pool when I was a kid.

People were enjoying taking turns timidly dropping off straight down into the deep water and building confidence to actually try jumping or diving. A few fathers made everybody (about 70 people standing around watching and or waiting for their turn) laugh making huge splashes belly flopping off the 2 meter high platform. The lifeguards supervised well and made sure that each diver was out of the pool before they let the next person jump.

My daughter N (soon to be 11) challenged me to go off the
platform so I stood in line and waited for a turn. The lower diving
boards had shorter lines so I was able to see N and her big sister J (15) jump a few times while I waited. When my turn finally came, the crowd seemed suddenly silent. What was this fat, white haired, foreign grandmotherly person doing up there on the platform? My daughter was smirking in anticipation of a big splash.

Did I walk and stand at the edge and drop off feet first? No, I took two firm and quick steps and a jump and propelled myself up and over half the pool, flying through the summer sky in a perfect swan dive (my first in several decades). I heard a big collective "oooooh!" as I glided splashlessly into the cool, deep pool.

Boy did I show them! :-)

I was careful to readjust my swimsuit on my way back up to the surface to keep the show G rated.

I think that this makes up for my dismal performance velcro-wall
jumping earlier this year.

What a joy!

[Believe51]

I slept in the only none-air-conditioned room in the house last night.

Today's Joy: I gently fell asleep to the sound of crickets, which may I add reminded me of all things good from childhood...what a treat>>Believe51

[Colleens_Husband]

Colleen and the kids went on vacation and I got to stay at home and work. (Thats not the good part.) The good thing is that I opened the cabinet for a bowl for cereal and there it was! The Bunny Bowl! What a special treat! Pour in the cereal and milk and it's "Bye, Bye Bunny, see you soon." And when you are a member of the clean plate club, it's "Bunny, your back!" Bunny always comes back, he's reliable that way. It's good to know that some things will always be there for you. You just got to find them.

Spike

[Terri B]

Its FRIDAY.

My husband (who is a trucker) is coming home tomorrow after being on the road for 3 weeks!

I think I feel good enough to hit the honky-tonk for a little karaoke tonight!

Lee?? That's kinda crazzee dude

[Bill]

My joy for the day is reading Marie's post about The Mighty Oak being NED!!!!!!

[harrie]

My joy for today: my bilirubin has been running a bit over the normal high side so my internist had me do a ultrasound. Came out normal!! hip, hip, horray!!!

[christie]

my day started good, by reading what anita had to say about Kenya in my 'LOVE FROM KENYA' post . to talk about the wild life and its beauty brought back good memories, bought a smile on my face, good to take my mind off BC. thanks Anita

[sassy]

My joy is having my port removed. I plan to NOT need it ever again!

[Believe51]

Ed and I took a ride yesterday and as he wisped me off to the country we opened the windows wide. We drove for what seemed like an etenity, a joy in itself.

Today's Joy: I stuck my arm out the window to catch the breeze like I used to do when I was just a tot. Funny how the Mountain Laurel smells the same. The big fields of wildflowers housed the sounds of insects. We passed a farmer whom was tending to his cows, he looked like he was 103 but in a tough wonderful way. In another area we went by a pen of pigs who came to the fence to say hello. Being the photo-hag that I am I had the camera ready for my photogenic pig friends.

The day could not have been better. Just being alive and feeling alive after this ride shall carry me through another glorious day. Thank You God, I love this world!

[Mary Jeanne Phillips]

What a wonderful way to see the rainbow at the end of the storm. Positiveness is the only answer. Our attitude has to be our priority.
My joy is that we were not swept away by the hurricane and the sun is shining today.
God is soooo good and HE is always a breath away.
You gals are such an inspiration to me. I thank you everyday that I found this site.
MY MOTTO is FAKE IT TO MAKE IT!!! It really works both on the outside and inside.
MUCH love to all of you. Mary Jeanne

[juanita]

That our high school team started the season of good last night with a win of 55-28.

[Terri B]

My joy for today:

I am at work (shhhhh!) on Monday morning instead of in a chemo chair!!! After 12 Mondays, I am BLESSED to have a job, and to be here right now!!

Next treatment: September 8th (my oldest daughters birthday!)

[Mary Jeanne Phillips]

My Joy today is that I am not nauseated and I can fix my green vegetable drink and drink it and have a fatigue free day to start my move to another wonderful home. It will have windows that I can see the world out of. I have been in a condo with only the front and back exposed to the outside. I will feel free and also have a spare bedroom for company. How could life be anybetter??? Love, Mary Jeanne

[Mary Anne in TX]

Early rising to wake my granddaughter so she had plenty of time to get her 1st day of 3rd grade outfit "Just Right"! To see the joy and excitement in her face made my day! I see how hard she works to have a "normal" life without either of her parents. That little squirt gives me renewed purpose each an every day!

[Faith in Him]

I am right there with you Mary Anne. I walked my daughter to her 5th grade classroom and my son to his 2nd grade room. Today is a great day. Dealing with a local recurrence makes my life seem so uncertain. But, today I got up thinking I'm the luckiest person in the world. Seeing them start another year just warms my heart.

Thank you God for today.

Tonya

[Believe51]

Ed and my Daddy went out together for an enjoyable ride in the country. They managed to give Mom a bit of a break....LOL. As you may remember, Mom comes over almost every night since diagnosis. Dad, however, does not see the big guy as often.

Today's Joy: Daddy said "Marie, I could have never picked a better man for you to spend your life with!" There is nothing better than my Daddy's opinions.

[StephN]

... doing a big cleanout of our rather small walk-in closet in our bedroom.

Shelves were crammed with my hat collection from chemo in 2001 and 2002, shoes that do not fit or are not comfortable any more, half worn out slippers from the days that I did not go out much, and other memories of my fighting back with this disease.

Some chores get put off just because all the "baggage" that comes with them is too much to handle until some time has passed.

Now I have a 'skinny' highboy from IKEA that fits just outside the closet that I can put things in that I DO use and want to get at. The rearrangement of our bedroom makes it seem larger as well.

OH, JOY, to be able to put some more order in my life!!

[juanita]

Dilly is here!!!!!!!

[StephN]

Hey Juanita -

maybe Dilly would like this:

http://www.pixcetera.com/pixcetera/mud-day-2008/5270 (http://www.pixcetera.com/pixcetera/mud-day-2008/5270)

And anyone else who used to "wash their hair" in the garden mud like me and my little neighbor friend. Feels SO-O-O-O good!

[Jackie07]

What fun! I guess kids in the Ike-stormed area won't have problems to find mud. But it probably will be too polluted to play...

[juanita]

I have a picture of my kids when they were little and they were playing in the mud. All you can really see is the whites of their eyes and their little white teeth as they smile at the camera.

[Sheila]

The Bears Won their first game...and they beat the Colts....sorry Juanita :(

[DonnaD]

Those of us around Chicago are big sports fans. I was lucky enough to be at the Cubs game when our pitcher, Zambrano, had a no hitter. The last one for the Cubs was 36 years ago. Go Cubs!

[Believe51]

Before leaving for work I normally give Mighty Oak a giant kiss on the top of his head, especially during treatment times (the past for now).

Today's Joy: Kissing his head smells just like a newborn baby's skin. Oh, how I love to kiss his formally bald head. Makes all the bad go away before work>>Believe51

[Colleens_Husband]

This morning I woke up cuddling Colleen. I thought that she is the best person I have ever known and every day I spend with her is a precious gift. I am so fortunate that she has been a part of my life. I am going to find someway to show her this today.

[Believe51]

......like you do everyday from what I see. Enjoy your day with your best friend>>Believe51

[Mary Jo]

...and my joy today was reading "colleen's husband's" post and it made me so thankful for Colleen that she has such a wonderful husband as you. And thankful for you to have such a wonderful wife as colleen and thankful for both of you to have each other and to not be taking that love for granted.

God is Good....

Mary Jo

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Being a part of the best support group ever. This joy goes well beyond all words. I love you all and are so blessed you are a part of our everyday life!!>>Believe51

[juanita]

today's joy, and it's a big one for me---i have lost 20 pounds since school started and have dropped from an 18 to a 14! i danced all around the living room when i found i'd dropped sizes! the dog thought i was crazy.

[sassy]

Way to go Juanita! What's your secret?
By the way, I think I found your 20 pounds if you need them back......

[Colleens_Husband]

Major props to Juanita! Good job! Now keep those pounds off. Was it the switch to the low-fat spray cheese?

[PinkGirl]

Way to go Juanita ... 20 lbs. is lots ... think of 20 lbs. of butter
stuck all over your body. How did Sassy and I both manage to
find the poundage that you lost? Hmmmm, and I just ate one
of Ma's coffee mug chocolate cakes for breakfast ....

[Her2nSue]

I'm happy to announce that tom. marks my 3rd yr. of survivorship. Yeaaaa. Plus, God sent me a loving man my way after my brutal divorce from a non supportive spouse. I feel very fortunate in realizing that I can still have deep feelings for a person and be loved in return. It's just wonderful to feel like a beautiful woman again!

[sassy]

Pink,

It would be a JOY to allow you the full allotment of Juanita's lost poundage. I would not want to be a glutton. Just let me know how to transfer!

[juanita]

i started walking after work on the track at school. i'm up to 4 miles in 1 hr 5min. i also changed the way i was eating because of high cholestrol and possible diabetes. though when i broke my foot it was like permission to eat whatever i felt like again. started feeling blah, so now it's back to eating good. and i am walking with that stupid boot on my foot. since i'm on fall break this week i'll take dilly up to walk with me.

[Her2nSue]

Sassy,
I thank you very much in wanting to share in taking on the weight loss that Juanita successfully did, but unfortunately I will have to decline the offer. I've just started to get back into my jeans from over a year ago, must be from the extra curricular activity that I haven't enjoyed in years! So, please feel free to pass on to another who might be interested in sharing with you. I'm sure when winter sets in shortly here in Iowa, those old jeans aren't going to be fitting as well no matter what excercise I'll get to do. Iowa winters just normally make one feel like a lumpy slug. Can anyone share some sunshine and warmer weather this way soon? And Juanita, boot and all, you go girl around that track, we're all right with you in spirit!
Sue

[Terri B]

Well Juanita, i'm happy for you!

I started walking a little over a week ago. 1 mile a day (about 20-25 mins) and i ended up GAINING 2 lbs.. I am the saddest person when it comes to my weight :(

On the JOYFUL side... I have only ONE chemo treatment left!!!!!! woo hoo!!!

[juanita]

i did gain weight when i first started. muscle weighs more than fat and the stretched muscle holds water. my joy for this week is dilly's here!!!!

[Believe51]

I am so happy to just have a job in this economy with a boss that many dream of. I let him know that our journey is again in 'crisis mode' and appointments will be plentiful. His response: "No problem, just let me know an hour before you have to leave"!!

I am pleased that Mom is one year out and doing fine. We will be watching her closely but I am so happy for her.

I am warm and fed, I am loved and respected. I am surrounded by loving friends and family.

Tonight we will be looking over the 2,100 photos from our 13 day adventure.....yes...2,100 pictures!!! This will help me so in my daily visualization and yoga activities. And as far as Ed, it will remind him of why he was fighting for 2 years and what he has to look forward to next year.

I am happy to have friends like you. I love you>>Believe51

Today's Joy: Just reflecting how truely blessed I am!!

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: I love the feel of my Kabuki brush when I put on my morning foundation!! Sooooo relaxing!>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Thanksgiving Day has always been special to Ed and I but this year it fell on the day he was born. Many moons ago on a brisk Thanksgiving Day my gift was created....My Mighty Oak.

We celebrated many things yesterday but the best and most deserved was that he is still here.

Today's Joy: Reflecting how lucky we are to receive the time we are petitioning for.>>Believe51

[juanita]

mine is different. today our local football team played in the single a state football championship and lost a hard fought game. and as sad as it was to lose, i'm glad they did because it taught them all a very good lesson in life. oh, we'd won the last three years in a row, and have 9 titles combined.

[Believe51]

I went into the spare master bedroom which I keep cool on purpose for a few reasons.

Today's Joy: My Amaryliss is growing, my Amaryliss is growing. If I force it maybe it will bloom for Christmas.>>Believe51

[StephN]

Four days of Joy!
Went to my hometown for Thanksgiving for the first time in over 20 years! My parents ALWAYS came to Seattle. Since Dad passed away one year ago there are some changes in the family structure and others are taking on the duties. My nephew had over 20 for Thanksgiving. There was SO much food that it was almost a CRIME!
Got a lot accomplished for Mom and got in a little R & R as well.

Here is view out my kitchen window a couple of weeks ago. Had to post it so Believe won't have the only Fall Scene!

[Believe51]

Steph, I guess you were right when you said you love the leaves but need to do all that raking before you fall. Nice view my sweet!!>>Believe51

[Patty F]

My joy today is finally having enough hair to part down the middle. I just wish some of these curls would go away. But better curly hair than no hair.

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Being apart of this wonderful community has improved the quality of our lives. I know for a fact that Ed and I could not survive without you all!!>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: In a nutshell I am just so pleased to have the Mighty Oak standing by my side and that I get to live another day to love all my family and friends!>>Believe51

[Colleens_Husband]

15 years ago today, Colleen and I were married. Even though it was a long time ago, I have grown more and more in love with Colleen as each year goes by. I used to see very elderly couples sit down on a park bench and hold hands and I had always been so perplexed by how two people could be so much in love for so many years. With Colleen, I can see us being that much in love.

Even though this last year has been very tough on both of us, I would rather go through hard times with Colleen than good times with anybody else.

I hope and pray that all of you have a chance to share what I feel towards Colleen.

Lee

[notamrnpsn]

Congrats to both of you. Isn't love a wonderful thing. My husband and I will be married 47years in February. And they said it wouldn't last.

[Colleens_Husband]

Notamrnpsn:

Wow! 37 years! Now that truly is impressive! My hat is off to you two!

Lee

[notamrnpsn]

Read it again lee. I said 47 years. Thats okay, the eyesight goes first. Lol , Blessings, Jeanette

[Believe51]

I work with special needs, both children and adults. Today is the first day back to work since the Gamma Knife and the ole mind is back at home with Mighty Oak.

Through the doors came one of my favorites ('course they all are). He waited so patiently at the door of my office. When my partner asked if he could help him, he said he needed Marie.

Today's Joy: My little Sweetheart held a hand wrapped gift that he bought with his own money and surely wrapped with love himself. It was an insulated coffee mug for my daily latte addiction. Of course this brought me back to the reality of my life and filled my heart with the true wonders of the holiday season. I stood there breathless with tears of happiness that delve deeper than any words can describe. This is my pure joy for today and many days to come.>>Believe51

[WomanofSteel]

I am happy that I was able to spend this Christmas watching my family and crazy cats open their presents. This was the best gift I could get. The smiles on their faces and the kitties playing in the boxes and paper were the highlight of my day!

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: It is snowing so hard and I get to go home early from work. I can really get used to this!!>>Believe51

[juanita]

my joy is that we drove down and got dilly on christmas day and had her here till new years day! she is growing up so fast and changing so much!

[suzan w]

Joy...my 2 brand new grandchildren and watching my own children learn how to be awesome parents.

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Waking up with worse than usual neck/back pain and tried to hide it. First thing Mighty Oak said to me when he woke up was, "How are you feeling today??" How am I doing? Ahhh, I love how he knows me so well and how very unselfish my best friend is.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Washing breakfast dishes this morning a bubble about an inch big came to softly rest on my shoulder. Stayed there a good long time too. I actually laughed outloud!>>Believe51

[Jackie07]

Today's joy:

Filled out a job application on-line - the job fair is tommorw in a neighboring town 30-40 minutes away. I called the number and was told I could apply on-line. And I did it! Felt very smart... :)
(Only a 'brain-damaged' - OK, it should be 'head-injured' or 'a person with TBI [traumatic brain injury]' - person could be so cheerful for a small accomplishment like this. But hey, we've got to give ourselves positive feedback when the negatives are all around us!)

[Terri B]

Going outside in the cold to start my car to go to work this morning, then running back in the house, stumbling on the second step going back upstairs to my bedroom!

The joy in this?

Having the energy to "TRY" to run up the stairs!!

(I should know better :)))

[Colleens_Husband]

Yesterday afternoon I took the kids with me grocery shopping and the youngest son, Miles, decided we needed to do something for Colleen. Miles knows Colleen likes Runts, a hard candy in the shape of fruit, so we bought a large box. They are actually pretty good except for the banana shaped ones and they taste like finger nail polish remover. So I had Miles and Ma'ire open the box and take out all of the banana Runts and put the rest of the Runts back in the box.

This isn't an unprecedented gesture in our household. Colleen will sometimes buy me M and M's and sort out all the 'w's. I hate eating typos. I'm sure you can all relate.

So Colleen comes home from work and she sees the box of Runts and she shakes it and notices that it is emptier than it should be. She asked me if I sorted out the banana Runts and I said I did. She asked me if I ate the banana Runts and I said "No way, they are nasty! I made Miles and Ma'ire eat them."

Colleen came up to me and gave me a big hug. Today's joy is making a special effort and having that effort recognized.

[schoolteacher]

Coleen is lucky to have you. It is amazing that once this happens to you the smallest things mean so much to you.

Amelia

Amelia

[ElaineM]

My joy yesterday and today has been thinking how grateful I am to be living during this time in history.
A new president and a new vice president. A new beginning.
Hope for the future. New health care treatments are being developed to help people.

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Mighty Oak ate (ahh..drank) more than the cat today. Spinal radiation side effects had his throat closed so tight he was choking on water. Did not eat for 4 days last week, but I stayed home for the week to play 'stay-at-home nurse'. God I love him so much.

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: I went to take the garbage out so I put the ole boots on. Snow everywhere as you know. To my amazement there was 2 perfect oak leaves touching together like they were holding hands. They were in excellant shape. This was a wonder, where did they come from since it has been snowing for a couple of months now???? Needless to say I took it as a sign of goodness>>Believe51

[vickie h]

My joy today was going to the garden at school in the rain and putting in tomato plants (even though the gophers are taking over) with my grandson's third grade class. We picked lettuce, ate carmel corn and danced in the rain. It is so incredibly great to be alive at this moment. Looking into the precious eyes of all those sweet 8 year olds was like being in heaven. Love, Vickie

[Believe51]

I am an office manager in charge of 6 publications and we have the blessings to have special needs paper carriers employed by us. One of my young ladies is non-verbal so I sign to her and she makes efforts to speak every day to me. We have this thing, a special bonding that I have loved for some time now. I share my lotion with her when she comes in and that happens to be a different scent every day. When my girl is all lotioned up I proceed to my desk to give her tiny stickers; she has a sticker fetish. I watch her remove her Chiquita banana stick to put mine on. The smiles are consistent and I look forward to seeing her each day.

When I was out of work for the week Ed was so ill, she missed me and I was told she did not smile at all. She looked lost from my understanding. The look on her face upon my return was 'priceless'.

Today's Joy: My little sweetheart came in beaming, her smile was from ear to ear. Held tight in her hands was a homemade Valentine's card that she made especially for me. As I looked at the red heart doily in the center decorated with foam items that spelled out my name, I cried. There were XXX's and OOO's all over it. Wow!

I thanked God this morning for another day and prayed for myself, a thing I rarely do. I asked him for strength and peace today. Guess I got exactly what I asked for. It is so nice to know that I will never go into the history books but that I can deeply touch people lives. I am loved by so many and I get to love back. My life is so full of love and this is all I have wanted since a child. Thank you my sweet.>>Believe51

[Terri B]

It is FRIDAY, and I have just taken my LAST RADIATION TREATMENT!!! (at least I hope so!)
:D

[vickie h]

It's Monday, raining, and the fireplace is aglow. We're going to a matinee today, out to dinner and then home to crawl back in bed and read/do crosswords, etc. What a great day it is . Love, Vickie

[SoCalGal]

I'm a first time joy-poster but a frequent follower...tonight during a conversation with my daughter I felt overwhelmingly grateful to be present for that moment.
All the surviving was worth that very moment.

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Finding Flori here today. Flori, I am surprised it took you so long with all the joy in your life. Please make this a ritual for yourself and others. You are an inspiration to all that love you!!>>Believe51

[SoCalGal]

Good one Marie:)

[StephN]

I think Flori just took that "deep breath" we keep taking about. Breathe in HOPE - breathe out FEAR ... and repeat, etc.

A FLOCK of ROBINS!
I actually came here to post about the birds migrating as a sign that spring is near. We have 4 distinct seasons here, and we always see birds, but I have NEVER seen a flock of some 20 robins land in our back yard and proceed to peck around in the gardens. The group landed in the south half of the yard and worked their way to the north gardens and bird baths. They stayed around about 1/2 an hour. I think our grass had a surplus of worms!

Then, while the robins were here, came a flock of European starlings as well. With the odd Jay, flicker and song sparrows. It was like having our own aviary! The bird raucus was JOY- inducing!

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Ready to walk out the door to go to work and bumped into the Mighty Oak heading to the bathroom. He scared me and I actually jumped backwards and screamed. We laughed like fools!>>Believe51

[schoolteacher]

Today's JoY

Seeing my students walk in the door this morning at 7:20, and one of them asking for math to do at 7:40.

Amelia

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Mighty Oak's brain has nothing new and what was 'Gamma-rized' is going away. Take that cancer!! How do you like us now??>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Remembering the sight I came home to last night after work. Ed in his Lazyboy with an upside-down orange Maine Wave cat in his lap. Huge smile on the big guys face and giant tufts of fur shooting from the bottom of his cohorts feet. Mighty Oak and Mookie looking up to answer the door in a sense. Of course no one got up and that was part of the beauty. Ed's smile was more beautiful than anything else I could imagine. Life just could not seem any better!>>Believe51

[vickie h]

Today's Joy....reading Marie's joy! Made me smile.... Love, Vickie

[Believe51]

I just dropped the car off so Ed could get bloodwork done. Looking over to the gas station I had to past I saw what appeared to be Mom's car. Yes, there was my Mommy, 'lilAcorn, pumping gas. It is gorgeous here today (45 degrees) and I quickly opened the window to scream out. All I said was "Mommmmmy!!"

Today's Joy: The look at my Mother's face when she looked up and waved. Even if there was ever any doubt, that look would have taken it away. Wow does my Mommy love me!!

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Having The Mighty Oak take care of ME while my back is out. I felt like I did in our first life and kinda pampered too. He braved the blizzard to get me treats also. Welcome back My Mightiest of Oaks, I missed you!!>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Watching the cat chase his tail with such determination and skill.>>Believe51

[schoolteacher]

Today's Joy: Knowing the Mighty Oak is feeling better.

Amelia

[StephN]

Besides all the encouraging news from some of our members, there are some signs of spring to bring JOY. I took some time out today to go watch our local rookery of great blue herons in action. They were refurbishing their nests. The male would fly off and return with some twigs, pass them to the female who then placed them in her nest. Fascinating to watch these great blue-gray birds!
(My bird-watching secret is out!)

http://seattletimes.nwsource.com/ABPub/2008/03/04/2004260783.jpg (http://seattletimes.nwsource.com/ABPub/zoom/html/2004261307.html)

[Believe51]

Went to GammaMan last night and he had a full house of follow ups. Of course we chatted as we waited for our name to be called. There was 5 total patients waiting for our 'Claim to Fame'.

Today's Joy: All 5 of us were clean!! Brain clear!! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!

PS: Steph, your secret was safe with me. I'll let you know when our falcons are back!

[Believe51]

Oooops, and then............More Joy

for all the millions of school buses I let out, a kind one returned the favor for me this morning. The best part was she was so happy to do it and her smile warmed my day. Otherwise I would probally still be there!

[fauxgypsy]

Nothing to do with cancer, but it made me cry in a good way. http://www.opey.com/teddy.html

[Believe51]

When we close the bedroom door at night we leave our antique door (love it!) 'unlatched' a tiny bit so I do not make noise entering and exiting. Well, getting ready this morning our crazy man of a cat, Mookie went racing around the house. Of course, this is after I scuttled around the house quietly all morning. I fed him, I gave him fresh water, portioned out the dry food, I played with him, gave him big luv 'ems and his insulin shot.

I watched him as he played with the half cut paper towel roll I made. We also have the old fashioned turn-to-open knobs on the cabinet doors. This house is the same home I was born in and although I have moved out of this family home a few times, I returned to the comfort of childhood. I witnessed him rub his fangs on the handles, rubbing his face and smiling.

I savored the morning in the home I was raised in, loving my cat, sipping java, thinking of my man. I thanked God for another day to enjoy life. Things were great! Well, until..........

Today's Joy: Mookie went back to his marathon run and I went on to my business. I noticed the light on in the bedroom and went to steal a kiss. Ed looked up and I asked him if he was up for the morning. He told me "No" and said that the cat had busted in the door and jumped on the bed. He scared the heck out of his Daddy!!

The Best Joy: I got blamed in a way for Mookie's behavior! I laughed all the way to work.

Mookie, if you can hear me, "You 'wis a baaaa-boy!" Thank you kitty, I did steal a kiss after all. Nice to see you running and feeling so good today. Momma loves you.

[vickie h]

Faux Gypsy, Your post was amazing. I read the link you posted and cried this morning. We should treat all children with love and respect, as if they are our own. thank you so much for posting this...it made my day and gave me much fodder for thought and reflection. Now that is a true joy! Love, Vickie

[Believe51]

Getting ready for work this morning I spritzed myself with one of my favorite perfumes. I kissed the kitty and gathered my belongings. Wait, could that be The Mighty Oak? Yes! I scurried over to him and gave him a giant hug and kiss. He smelled me and replied, "Mmmm, you smell like the cruise, I love that Henri Bendel Vanilla Flower perfume, Marie."

I too am a very sense-sual person and scents have always taken me back in time, to different places, to wonderful memories. I try to use different perfumes and colognes to stimulate Ed's memory bank. With his brain and all of the work done on it, I do whatever I can to preserve our life. Sounds crazy but we do a daily account of memories and feelings. I think it keeps him sharp too.

Whatever happens to his brain I worry if he will remember me if things get rough. With the daily scents and memory recalls I pray that if his brain is damaged he will atleast smell me and know that I am someone comforting.....that I am security.

Today's Joy: Having Ed remember and recite the wonderous memories from our past. His recollection of events and the way he views them amazes me daily. I love listening to him and how he sees our marriage, those precious memories and the feelings that are 'us'. I love him more than life itself.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Last night I was a little sad, no reason just everything. I had a bit of anxiety and decided to use it to my benefit. When I got into the house I asked Ed where the giant sponge was so I could go wash the car. I know how he likes a clean car ("Take Pride In Your Ride"~his motto). I also know that this maybe a tad emotionally for me and that feelings would come to the surface. I used to spend my days washing, waxing and buffing the Cadillac for relaxation. This used to be 'my time' and I so appreciated it. That car was taken by cancer, kind of our way of downsizing and getting ready for whatever future we would have. The car was our dream vehicle and although I used it all the time, Ed could only witness it parked in the driveway; it hurt him not being able to enjoy it. Since we needed only one car after diagnosis, I decided it was best to sell it so we could get ready for 'that time'. Also it would not be a constant reminder of what was. I have washed and buffed our Camry Solara before but it is not the same, of course I am not a materialistic person, the pain comes from the cancer and our altered life.

Remember please: I only asked him where the sponge was.

Quickly he jumped up to get it. I thought I was safe but then he proceeded to hand me squirt bottles of rim cleaner, Windex, precleaner. It did not stop there.....a wire brush, assorted towels, the hand vac. I looked at him and busted out in a fit of laughter, I almost emptied my bladder right then and there!

Today's Joy: No one makes me laugh like Ed does. I was crying because I was so besides myself with so much happiness. Cancer will never rob us from that!! I just could not stop laughing. Ed, sick as he is, really is still the same person he was. My little creature of habit had given me something no one else can.....himself. Wow do I love him!!

I did have an emotional time with those thoughts and memories. I was sad washing the car, memories flooding the mind. I had taken the faceplate to the stereo and had Pink Floyd blasting like a teenager would. I looked up to the sunny sky and thanked God. I thanked him for another day to love this man. I thanked him for helping us acheive this time together. And best of all, I thanked him for sending us such a wonderful group of friends. I also thanked him for the family waiting at the campfire just to shield me from the evils I was enduring.

I love you all so very much. Today is another day and I feel much better.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

You all remind me constantly to take care of myself. Well how is this for proof??

This Week's Spoiling Joy's: On the 19th it was our 16th Anniversary from the day we met. Since Ed had moved here from California he was living with his Mom. I consider my Mother-in-Law as a large part of this day's celebrations since I had to meet her that night.

Thursday I fell asleep after work, woke up in time to solve Final Jeopardy. Fell back asleep and woke up in time for the nightly news.

Friday after treatment we visited Ed's Mom since Saturday was her birthday. She cooked for us despite her arthritis. Sitting down it felt like all those past Italian meals she used to make. The house smelled so nice and she looked like she was in her glory. After all, she was. She told me how very happy she was to have me in her life. Well, the entire day was full of compliments.

Saturday I slept in, so late that it was the first time I have been late for Mookie's diabetic shot. Woops! I spent the day frolicing around the house. I had to take a pain pill so I was not all that fast but I had a hell of a time. In fact, it took me all day to do things that should have taken 3 hours.

Sunday I soaked the feet in a luxury soak that was comprised of Jasmine. I got to sit all day and watch old movies. Later in the evening I did a facial mask. This mask is the best I have ever used. When I took it off it came off in one large 'mask' that suited my face. Ed was laughing so hard that he actually had to hold it to believe it.

The entire week was full of many other pampering spoiling activities. It will not stop there either. Tonight I have plans to do almost nothing. I think I will read after the candles get lit, the prayers are said and the belly is full.

This could get to be a habit. Believe it or not, I only got to do nothing because I had to medicate myself so deep. Love to all.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: My Mother-in-Law just pinched the nurse. Even in a coma this is one tough cookie! Looks like she is getting better.>>Believe51

[ElaineM]

I am happy because 4 days of major bathroom renvovations are finished. I sat there after my first shower in my almost new bathroom and admired everything. I have been going to an empty apartment for showers this week.

[Jackie07]

My joy is to have been reconnected with my junior high school buddies recently. There were four 'guys' I used to hang out with during summer and winter breaks (of high shool years and then after college.) They are truely like my brothers (though I have three good ones of my own) - I was their confidant especially when it came to be about girls.

Three of them have been talking to each other via 'Skyve'. My dial-up connection turned out to be too slow to utelize the technology after one of them had called me and urged me to download the program. So we 'talked' over the Web after he gave me another friend's e-mail. His wife is also a classmate and was my close friend in elementary school. She and I had a nice chat over the phone.

We used to play basketball, pingpong and go to movies together and I would be reading the Chinese version of Reader's Digest while they played Mahjong (Chinese dominos - one of the most popular activities during the Lunar New Year celebration.) I lost contact with them except the one in Florida (who is 3 years our senior and always acts like a big brother) would check on me by phone once, twice a year.

They were not amused to learn about my upcoming surgery and had told me to call/e-mail them once I get discharged from the hospital.

My friends here in Central Texas have never seen the 'tomboy' side of me. Hubby has been immersed in his golf game lately (just made a breakthrough on his golf swing)and acted quite indifferent to my so-called 'old flames'. But I can't forget (even after two brain surgeries) the time the 'Gang of Four' and I had spent together just 3 days before I was to come overseas. We pretty much 'walked' all over the streets of downtown Taipei and sampled all kinds of food and chatted till dawn - their send-off gift for me.

'Friendship is forever' - thanks to the technology I get to be connected with my 'buddies' when I need them the most.

[WomanofSteel]

Today's joy is also a source of aggravation. My little cat is just a crazy thing and today I caught her running around with something strange in her mouth and when I finally caught up with her I found out she had bitten the head off of one of my Goofy toys. She had Goofy's head in her mouth which was both irritating and funny at the same time. I need a cage for this crazy critter!

[Believe51]

Awww, unacceptable WomanofSteel!! Sorry that I laughed especially how I love Goofy too. Next time Kitty is bad tell her she is going to get big 'PoomPooms'. It is my Mother-in-Laws way of saying beatings. Of course she never hit an animal but the threat of PoomPooms really makes them behave (hahaha). With luck this Goofy will be one of the doubles I will be taking with us to Boston.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Just sitting at my desk happy to be working (Ahhem) while I still have a job. I pray that I can work as long as possible. Rhode Island's unemployment rate is 10.5 percent! This place is going down!>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: A butterfly just landed on my girlfriends chest, it looked like she was wearing a pin. Happy Spring everyone!

And do not forget the joy and laughter that Flori gave me this morning!>>Believe51

[ElaineM]

I just wanted to share my thankfulness about what kind and compassionate doctors I have.
I got a call from my M.D. this morning who was shopping at Walmart. He was going to look in the Honolulu Walmart for some over the counter skin cream he suggested the other day. He also said his mother was going to another Walmart on another part of the island to check on her way to Honolulu. If they are successful he will drop it off tonight. On Friday I told him Monday is my shopping day, so I will see if a local pharmacy has it. Imagine that !! My doctor is helping me do my shopping !! What a guy !!
Once my naturopath came all the way from the other side of the island to make a house call without charge and bring me some special cough medicine when my bronchitis wouldn't go away.
Another time my dermatologist stepped up to the plate when the surgeon wouldn't respond to my page about a wound that split open. I went to the dermatologist's office where she treated and repaired it. Then she took me to the hospital pharmacy and spoke with the pharmacist and choose something for me to use at home everyday to prevent infections.

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Wish I could scream this from on top of a mountain....My Mother-in-Law is out of her coma. She is still on the vent but trying with all her might to recover. This is a day for chocolate and I do not mean dark chocolate!! WhoHoo!!!!!>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: My Mother-in-Law is off the vent and breathing air again through an oxygen mask, but that still counts. Whew!>>Believe51

[Jackie07]

Got up, went out, found the most beautiful bundle of irises in the front yard. Light lavender color, slanting down toward the groud... Oh, this is heaven...

[Jackie07]

~ A Baby's Hug ~

We were the only family with children in the restaurant. I sat Erik in a high chair and noticed everyone was quietly sitting and talking. Suddenly, Erik squealed with glee and said, 'Hi.' He pounded his fat baby hands on the high chair tray. His eyes were crinkled in laughter and his mouth was bared in a toothless grin, as he wriggled and giggled with merriment.

I looked around and saw the source of his merriment. It was a man whose pants were baggy with a zipper at half-mast and his toes poked out of would-be shoes. His shirt was dirty and his hair was uncombed and unwashed. His whiskers were too short to be called a beard and his nose was so varicose it looked like a road map.


We were too far from him to smell, but I was sure he smelled.. His hands waved and flapped on loose wrists. 'Hi there, baby; hi there, big boy. I see ya, buster,' the man said to Erik.

My husband and I exchanged looks,
'What do we do?'






Erik continued to laugh and answer, 'Hi.'






Everyone in the restaurant noticed and looked at us and then at the man. The old geezer was creating a nuisance with my beautiful baby. Our meal came and the man began shouting from across the room, 'Do ya patty cake? Do you know peek-a-boo? Hey, look, he knows peek- a-boo.'


Nobody thought the old man was cute.. He was obviously drunk.


My husband and I were embarrassed. We ate in silence; all except for Erik, who was running through his repertoire for the admiring skid-row bum, who in turn, reciprocated with his cute comments.


We finally got through the meal and headed for the door. My husband went to pay the check and told me to meet him in the parking lot. The old man sat poised between me and the door. 'Lord, just let me out of here before he speaks to me or Erik,' I prayed. As I drew closer to the man, I turned my back trying to sidestep him and avoid any air he might be breathing. As I did, Erik leaned over my arm, reaching with both arms in a baby's 'pick-me-up' position. Before I could stop him, Erik had propelled himself from my arms to the man.






Suddenly a very old smelly man and a very young baby consummated their love and kinship. Erik in an act of total trust, love, and submission laid his tiny head upon the man's ragged shoulder.. The man's eyes closed, and I saw tears hover beneath his lashes. His aged hands full of grime, pain, and hard labor, cradled my baby's bottom and stroked his back. No two beings have ever loved so deeply for so short a time.
I stood awestruck. The old man rocked and cradled Erik in his arms and his eyes opened and set squarely on mine. He said in a firm commanding voice, 'You take care of this baby.'


Somehow I managed, 'I will,' from a throat that contained a stone.


He pried Erik from his chest, lovingly and longingly, as though he were in pain.. I received my baby, and the man said, 'God bless you, ma'am, you've given me my Christmas gift.'


I said nothing more than a muttered thanks. With Erik in my arms, I ran for the car. My husband was wondering why I was crying and holding Erik so tightly, and why I was saying, 'My God, my God, forgive me.'


I had just witnessed Christ's love shown through the innocence of a tiny child who saw no sin, who made no judgment; a child who saw a soul, and a mother who saw a suit of clothes. I was a Christian who was blind, holding a child who was not. I felt it was God asking, 'Are you willing to share your son for a moment?' when He shared His for all eternity. How did God feel when he put his baby in our arms 2000 years ago.

The ragged old man, unwittingly, had reminded me, 'To enter the Kingdom of God , we must become as little children.'






If this has blessed you, please bless others by sending it on. Sometimes, it takes a child to remind us of what is really important. We must always remember who we are, where we came from and, most importantly, how we feel about others. The clothes on your back or the car that you drive or the house that you live in does not define you at all; it is how you treat your fellow man that identifies who you are.


This one is a keeper.

'It is better to be liked for the true you, than to be loved for who people think you are......'

[PetuniaJan]

Beautiful Story !!!
Thank you for telling it:)
Happy Easter
Have a great day!
Love Jan

[fauxgypsy]

This has nothing to do with cancer. It has everything to do with dreams. I am still crying after watching it twice. I hope it moves you as it did me. Wow.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

[StephN]

Thanks a lot for that.
Two things come to mind.

1. Never judge a book by its cover.

2. Singing in the village church CAN pay off!

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Being reunited with my family here. Man o' man did I miss you all!!>>Believe51

[Jackie07]

Yeah, an alumna of my college choir e-mailed me the link of Susan Boyle. It was indeed inspirational. True talent
can not be hidden. And she's so cheerful and humble.
I think everyone of us need to treasure our own talent and shine on our own stage just like she did...

And welcome back, Believe 51, you are such an important part of this family.

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Looking at my high school yearbook this morning and smiling. It is funny how I thought I changed so much into this adult that now exists. Flipping through the pages and reading the responses really made me know that I had the makings. You could see the foundations of this woman we call Believe51. One of the interesting things I read over and over in all replies was that my smile and positive attiude was so powerful and important to them....that this would get me by any dark days. My life has never been an easy one but I see now that attitude is everything for me and that I have lived through some very dark days. I am glad to be me and to have been able to see this much life. I wish to live to be an old bitty.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Five weeks in the hospital and now in a rehab center, my Mother-in-Law is coming along fine. She still has ongoing issues that need tending to, one being the solid foods she eats go directly in her lungs. When visiting her she told me she changed and it is apparent to us all; she realizes she needs help and has accepted that now. My reply to her was that it only took a coma to straighten her out (smiling). I am so happy and between Ed, a close family friend and myself, we handled things at home great. This news makes me feel like I am floating on a cloud.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: My Mother-in-Law is now in a rehab center, alive and well and amazing us all. Things are progressing rather perfectly for her and that makes my life so much easier. She still has other health issues to tend to when she gets home, one of them being solid foods go directly into the lungs. I visited with her for many hours and had a ball with her, she is like an old friend and I thank God that we did not lose her. She sat there in bed putting pin curls in, yes...she was curling her hair can you believe it? We talked and she had mentioned to me that 'she changed' and this is a big accomplishment for her. She has realized she needs help and has fully accepted this fact. I laughed as I told her it only took a coma to straighten her out. Boy did we laugh real hard with that one.

Of course when my parents went to visit she mentioned that she could not wait to go outside to play in the yard. My Mom looked at her and said she knew where he Son-in-Law gets his fighting attitude. Joan replied that it would kill Ed if something happened to her and she fought for her life for Ed. She has a goal of getting home for Wednesday, Ed's new first chemo day. How cute she is wanting to be there for her boy, they are the cutest of teams. I am so blessed to have them both in my life.

Thanks for listening for this is a major joy in my life and the longest 5 weeks in a long time.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: It is gorgeous outside, the windows are open and although many things are happening around me......today I am on strike! I am cleaning the house, doing a little of research, but I will not think of anyone else but me.

I feel like singing "Make The World Go Away"....as a matter of fact, that is what I should sing as I finish the housework goals I have set, see I like that....I am making plans as I go. (lol)

Later I will probally play Gameboy for a few hours. Aaaah!! Today is about me!>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Ed cleaned the bathroon shelves for me while I was engrossed in other projects. Nothing was put back where I had it before and I did not say a word. That is another joy of mine because I am an anal neat freak but have put some of my obsessions aside. I appreciate what he did for me and it does not matter where he put things, I look at the meaning of it instead of the obsessions. Pick and choose you fights....besides, why would he do it again if I complained?? I not dumb much so. (LOL)>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: In order to get things researched today I had to give Mookie some treats, catnip and lots of loving. He is settled by my side like a newborn baby. So I sit here writing and poking around with the most gorgeous Maine Wave kitty near to me. I love it.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: I took a nap today and had a fabulous dream that I was petting a polar bear under his neck. The dream was so vivid that I could actually remember how soft he was. I woke up in such a warm mood after this simple dream.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: I think I have found a home for my Mother-in-Law's cat. He is a sweetie and although he will miss her, he will adjust in another loved household. This weighed heavy in ours hearts and now I think he will be adopted!!!

[Believe51]

I cannot believe that I can be the only person out of thousands that experience joy so often. Where is everyone?? My life is pretty much out of control right now and I find joy everyday.

This Weeks Joy's: I found my Mother-in-Laws medallions that she thought were gone for good.

My husband took his first Ixempra treatment.

My father got out of the hospital, yet again. The 18th was his birthday.

I came across a paper in my Mother-in-Laws desk. It was information concerning the Tykerb we needed last year and could not get at the time but eventually did. His Mommy was trying to get him these drugs without a computer, the old fashioned way. I smiled and cried that I miss her already, what a woman. I also found every card we ever sent her, thought I was a pack rat!

I took Ed to lunch and dinner at different occasions and watched him eat.

One of those dinners included watching a special needs adult celebrating her birthday. When they sang 'Happy Birthday' she was screaming in happiness. Almost the entire restaurant clapped for her and there were not too many dry eyes in the house. I had to approach her table to give her my own wishes, she struck my heart and this was a very sad day for me too. She grabbed my hand, held tight and did not want to let go. She looked in my eyes and smiled, she rejoiced with me and shared her happiness once more. Her smile is burned into my mind. I thanked the case workers and explained how I try to see joy everyday and that today, this woman, this stranger made me melt. My entire day was changed for the better.

I survived another day that I did not think I could and today is a much better one.

I have spent alot of time cleaning out my Mother-in-Laws home and keep coming across things that make me smile through the grief.

The chemo nurses remembered Ed's Mom passed and gave us a sympathy card as soon as we entered infusion for the day.

I slept for 12 hours straight just because I wanted to. I normally can meditate myself to sleep with deep concentrating but have been doing it from pure exhaustion.

I seen never before viewed pictures from Mighty Oak's life. I found a double of my favorite ones that I have in my living room. He was on his knees hugging his Border Collie around the neck as Mom sat on the step. I swear he looked exactly like cute little Timmy from Lassie. Precious.

My Mom approached a friend she used to work with in the funeral home. She had Mom G's obit and was going to ask him to laminate them as a favor. He told her, "Oh like these??" He had already done some for us.

I spent alot of time alone lately, partly against my will, Ed is in and out of sleep. This time has been put to good use instead of sadness. I have gotten more things done than I ever thought I could. I have also mourned alone for Mom G and have felt this time has helped me to mourn true. Still got a long way to go but time will heal.

I have my Mother-in-Laws favorite antique lamps adorning my home. One is a dragonfly Tiffany lamp, gorgeous. I have her things placed all over my home and it feels so good to have pieces of her all over.

I have found peace through all of the horrors I have experienced in the last two months. I am not sure how except form God, family and reaching deep down inside of myself. I thank you again for seeing me through one of the toughest parts of my life.

I take one day at a time since getting laid off and feel that I am meant to be at home right now.

I have lost 13 pounds that I have been trying to lose. I stopped weighing myself and focused just on getting and staying in the game. Ed noticed without me telling him so I weighed in and got surprised since it was not coming off at all for so long I put the scale away.

And I still believe!

This thread has always helped me to move forward with smiles and really hope that we can start to post again. I am not the only one with joy and if I can see it through all the fog in my life, you can too. Please, even if you do not post, please see these joys. There are other joys that do not include 'clean scans', we must see them. And I hope that we can share.

Now what is your joy today??

[juanita]

that i got to sleep last night with the help of mirapex for my restless legs!

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: I found a perfect home for my Mother-in-Laws cat, thanks to a love connection from our vets. The gentleman even gave Ed and I visitation rights, (wink and smiling).>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: My Mother-in-Laws house is finished getting moved out. I spent many nights going through her lifetime of memories. It was hard to get rid of things, pass things on....etc. I found many nice surprises though and I really think they were meant for me to stumble across in the process of closing up her life.

Best thing is the gentleman that I have placed her cat with has become a friend. I had an aweful last day at Mom's house as I watched the rest of her antiques and treasures get taken, not sold, by strangers. I cried as I witnessed this and looking around at an empty home. I could not get these thoughts out of my head. It was making me sick today......we had to give them away as part of the cost of removal. She had over $2,500 in curtains that I took home and mannnnny other things that I can share. Mom had both quality and quanity of everything! You cannot imagine the amount of stuff that was there.

But John called and his phone conversation was like Mom sent him to comfort me. John keeps us updated and we are going to get a visitation next week (yeah!!) He really put things into the perspective I needed to rid these thoughts. The cat is safe and loved, he is continuing to get spoiled and that is all Mom would care about. She would laugh at me if she could see how these physical treasures that we 'lost' were bothering me.....then she would tell me that all she cared about was her kitty. I am not a materialistic person, I just wanted to keep everything that was her.

I can now start to mourn. Doing this move was something I could only do but focusing on the task and not the memories. Bittersweet.

[fauxgypsy]

I had good week. I got the results of my Pet scan Monday and it was great. The sub pleural nodule that we have been watching is gone. MRI and MRA tomorrow and I will be able to relax for a while. Happy, happy, happy.

[Believe51]

Great news to hear and share, I guess you could call your results another one of my joys!! Here is to more great results and to much relaxing in the near future. Rock On Fauxgypsy!>>Believe51

[Colleens_Husband]

Yesterday, my youngest son Qwerty graduated from the sixth grade. He has had recruiters from Eastern prep schools offer him scholarships. I am very proud of his academic achievements.

Mostly, I am proud of the fact that our family provided a stable home for him and have given him the opportunity to thrive. He was able to go from kindergarten through sixth grade at the same school and he never had to move and say goodbye to his friends and make new friends somewhere else. That was very important to me. I have probably lived in fifty different places during my school years. It got to the point that we stopped making an effort to make new friends because we knew we were going to move in a few months anyways.

So Qwerty had a better more stable home life than I had, and as a parent, what more could you want than that?

[juanita]

my son, wife and 1 year old have gotten a place of their own and moved out. we took dilly home yesterday after having her for a week(yes i will miss her). and my husband went back to work today after being home on vacation. i have the house to myself!

[Believe51]

After getting the bad news with Ed's brain we went to dinner.

Today's Joy: We had a waitress that remembered our way of ordering. She started out repeating our last lunch......water with lemon...hot coffee, extra cream.....are you having your favorite salad Miss?? This made me smile and took me back to thinking on the right track. After all Mighty Oak is still right here with me, enjoy Marie.

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Ed went fishing, a hobby he gave up long ago. A close family friend spent the day with him. Before Ed took me to a late lunch we sat and talked. I asked him about his day and watched his face glow as he talked about Paulie (31 years old and still calls him Paulie~Cute). Paul stayed up late last night getting ready for their morning. When Ed was fishing, Paul asked if he wanted to sit. Ed told him in a noncomplaining manner that he was all set. Paul took a chair out of the truck for Ed~sweetie that he is. They caught all kinds of fish but Paul caught the most.

Paul just called to check on Ed. I told him he was sleeping and he was happy about that since he knew Ed did not sleep last night.......then he asked me if Ed mentioned that he caught the most fish?? It gives new meaning to a fish story, eh?...giving Ed credit he did not deserve, this warmed my heart. I let Paul know that the day meant the world to Mighty Oak and that I was thankful for both his friendship and how he takes care of Ed all the time.

Oooo, then the salad I had for lunch.....Garden greens with strawberries, white raisins, candied walnuts, Gorgonzola cheese and a pineapple vinagarette.......Mmmmm.

Besides new bumps in the road I am savoring each day.....especially now as Mighty Oak sleeps in his Lazyboy chair with a grin on his face.

What is your JOY today?? I could use some extra smiles today.

[Mary Anne in TX]

My joy today has been watching my 5 year old grandson, Blake! I watched as he excitedly go dressed in his new shorts, shirt, and sandles so we could go get him a haircut! That boy loves to get a haircut! After that, I got to help him get ready to go with his "PaPa" to the beach! He picked out some bowls, scoops, etc. and he was off! They've been gone for 4 hours and are having a great time (by phone calls)! Tomorrow I'll get the girls (granddaughters 7 & 9) and get them ready for a week of vacation bible school. Sometimes in the tough times, it's those 3 little faces that spurs me on!

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Watching Ed make his own dinner, a giant Porterhouse steak (Yuck). I admire his culinary skills and could watch him for hours. Hahaha, as long as I stay out of the way. He was brought up in a strict Italian family and when he was little he watched with amazement. His grandmother (father's side) was struck with Polio and spent her years in a wheelchair. She cooked and baked old Italian feasts and could roll 4 tortellinis with both her hands at once, wow!

A parade is passing by the house and Mookie just came out and sat in the middle of the living room looking at me like he did not know what is going on. When they came back by in the front of the house he went running into the music room. Rounding the corner he skidded out and hit the refrigerator which gave him back the posture he needed to continue his marathon.

And now my Friends, the ice cream truck is coming down the street. As I listen to the bells and hear children gathering, warm gentle memories of my own childhood flood my mind. There is an old mill that is down the street that made lace and such in the old days. They have renovated it into beautiful condos and restored the bell tower that tolled for its workers each hour. On the top of the tower is a giant rod that glows warm blue and is breathtaking in fog or snow and a warm summer night. It tolls on the hour and tonight when it strikes 7 I will say outloud, "Time to be back in the yard" and smile as those wonderful memories help me to daily tribute my life.

Another joy is that I even exist, that I can experience life for one more day. For this I give great thanks along with the fact that I can share this with you here.

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: We had electricians here today doing work that Ed would have been doing. They are hardwiring our fire alarm system to the firestation for us. I told them that I have not dusted for a few weeks because I knew that there would be a mess with this job. They complimented us on the neat and beautiful home we have created. This made me feel good since I am a neat freak, germ phobe and again, have not dusted for a few weeks.

Tonight's joy will be cleaning the house, oh I cannot wait until they leave!!>>Believe51

PS: One of the guys I went to highschool with. The other main electrician and I started talking. His girlfriend's Mom is in almost the same situation as Ed, same age, same issues....I gave him our phone number and will keep her in mind as I look for the answers. I hope we can help her too. That would be a joy for a different day if we can.

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Coming into the living room and finding Ed dusting a table that has my 'Oak Leaf Man' collection on it. He carefully removed my baby Yankee candles I use to dress up the surrounding area. He took care in placing them all back the way they were and if I did not see him do it, I would have never even known.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Listening to all of the phone calls to Ed today wishing him a "Happy Father's Day". Mind you, they were all speaking of his cat, Mookie!! Haha! My granddaughter is from my son, he is from another man not quite as wonderful as Ed but a real nice person.

I have a Henri Bendel candle burning and it has been burning all day. My house smells great, I have my husband by my side in his Lazy Boy chair, the cat on his lap....Life is good.

I sit here tonight and write that part of me is still numb and cannot believe this is happening to his brain. I look at the legal pad on my side and see two full pages of options. I skipped a line between them all and many are shots in the dark, many are risky but I fill with hope. I have hope, especially now and it flows as fierce as the swollen river across the street.

What a lovely day with Ed. Also I have had thoughts of Rose and how I will be working from home most of the time. I am so happy just being and focus on the future that we are going to once again grasp. Things are moving forward for us both, we just have to redirect the direction of our flow.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Listening to all of the phone calls to Ed today wishing him a "Happy Father's Day". Mind you, they were all speaking of his cat, Mookie!! Haha! My granddaughter is from my son, he is from another man not quite as wonderful as Ed.

I have a Henri Bendel candle burning and it has been burning all day. My house smells great, I have my husband by my side in his Lazy Boy chair, the cat on his lap....Life is good.

I sit here tonight and write that part of me is still numb and cannot believe this is happening to his brain. I look at the legal pad on my side and see two full pages of options. I skipped a line between them all and many are shots in the dark, many are risky but I fill with hope. I have hope, especially now and it flows as fierce as the swollen river across the street.

What a lovely day with Ed. Also I have had thoughts of Rose and how I will be working from home most of the time. I am so happy just being and focus on the future that we are going to once again grasp. Things are moving forward for us both and we are going to redirect the direction of our flow.>>Believe51

[juanita]

i get dilly tomorrow!!!!! for 2 weeks!!!!!

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Simply put, after my birthday party Ed took me to dinner, like I did not eat enough during the day (where are the chocolate Tums?). I took him home and got him settled. Oh yeah, I was going to do some damage. Shopping for sneakers, something I did not plan or desire to do. It came into the mind and that was it. I took my birthday money like a kid who feels the burning hole in the pocket feeling.

Why should I be normal either? I picked out 3 funky pairs of sneakers. A green and white pair of Reebok's, a yellow and white pair of Skechers' and my favorite....'Rocket Dogs' with tied-dyed laces and peace signs and a smiley face on the side. Midlife crisis you ask? Who cares, I ran with them. I am more spontaneous in life now and whenever I wear these sneakers I will smile because I remember. Those 'Rocket Dogs' are going to be my good luck pair I feel it.

So tomorrow when we go to Dana Farber I will adorn my good luck sneakies, crazy but awesome. Whenever I look down I will be reminded how I am able to see color in my life and how humor is for all ages.

I also got a phone call from a college sweetheart, we almost got married to one another. He has remained a constant force in my life, a true friend and total inspiration. His call made my day complete. He admires the love Ed and I share. Although we have never truly got over one another we are so happy we made the life choices we did. It takes a special team of lovers that can downgrade to friends and worship that friendship just as complete for 26 years. Hopefully Ed will feel better, he is dying to take us out on the town for dinner.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: I still Believe! I continue to hold hope. I know we can do this.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: I forgot to mention that Ed gained a little bit of weight. He will probally lose some after chemo Friday but our wishes is that he does not keep trying to close the gap on my weight. Uggh for us both....hahaha>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Although still rather high, Ed's tumor markers are coming down. Now if this drug reacts like its sister drug and passes the BBB, I think I would have to sit down to hear it.>>Believe51

[chrisy]

My Joy today is reading all of Marie's posts.

Marie, I love you so much!

[Believe51]

More Today's Joy: I love you right back, Chrisy. Make no mistake about it, I am still floating on a cloud from the news of this trial bringing to you to the places you have faught so hard to get to. I am so proud of you!!>>Believe51

[Bill]

My Joy today is that warm fuzzy feeling you get when you think about your best friends, all getting together, and laughing and hugging and having an all-around good time, and that's the way I feel right here, right now, "with" y'all. (oh, that's right, I need to correct the "y'all" part, as per Chrisy) I love "the entire lot of you"

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Standing in the middle of the driveway during a fierce thunderstorm, the cold slapping of rain on my face, the ground shaking beneath my feet, the daytime sky lighting up. I have been fighting sadness lately, go figure, and I want to just say I pushed it aside for another brief moment. I did not think of the dangers of this action, I did not worry about dangers this storm could supply, I just thought that I 'was'. For the time I stood in the cold rain getting pelleted by stinging rain I listened to the intense quiet. I was free of fear, even free of thoughts of cancer, I felt total peace....with myself and with life.

Now is this recommended for others....Ah....NO. "Please do not try this at home." (lol). But I felt liberated and free from all bad. This short time alone in the rain has filled me with happiness. It is a reminder for me to come in out of the rain and dry off. The thoughts of cancer have fled back into my mind and I think I will try the same approach. We have been there in the rain, dangers surrounding us, and it is time to dry off and remain safe.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Ed felt well enough to go for a ride to the ocean tonight. We sat and ate ice cream and enjoyed this time we still have together. Yesterday was 34 months.>>Believe51

.........o yeah, pistachio ice cream with hot fudge and no whipped cream. I needed this as much as I need to scoop my eyes out with a small ladel!! LoL

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: I asked Ed if there was something I could get him while I was up. I never expected him to say pancakes. Picture Marie having a hot flash at 12:25 in the morning making pancakes. Not a pretty sight. I am so happy that I could get him to eat something out of his ordinary.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Should I be eating Chinese food at 1am?? It is like a dream....MmmMmm>>Believe51

[Mary Jo]

Today's joy was reading these two happy posts from Marie and knowing you are experiencing some joy AND hot flashes.

Love and hugs....Mary Jo

[Jackie07]

Marie,

Midnight (before and after) Chinese snack is called 'Xiao Yeh' (宵夜) (both words means 'night') Many people take it with a sip of rice liquor or a can of beer. Very often it is a bowl of noodle soup or rice soup with some stewed meat and pickled vegetables. People who work late shifts (restaurant, hospital, hospitality, transportation, industrial...) or who play Mahjong (Chinese dominos) late into the night are the ones who eat Xiao Yeh regularly.

Students who are cramming for exams often get the special treats if a caring Mother (or other family member) is present. Often time it is a package of instant noodle soup with a stewed egg and some cabbage and green onions.

It's a light but satisfying meal that help people have a good night sleep (with sweet 'dreams'... :)

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: I love how he loves me.>>Believe51

[juanita]

supposed to be getting dilly on next couple days.

[Believe51]

Good Juanita, I cannot even imagine how much you miss that little one now she has moved out. Hug her for me.>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: My cat mookie was slumbering in the chair just now, I approached the little guy to tell him I loved him. He took his paw, white clumps of fur shooting out of it, and grabbed my face. Mookie drew my face closer to his so he could head butt me and gently kissed his Momma's face. Momma's Boy??? Yes and darn proud of it!>>Believe51

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: Ed has been craving cherry pies. In his Mother's pie plate I made him another one of my famed cherry pies.

Tonight he ate 2 helpings of baked ziti and he has not ate 2 plates of anything in such a long time. For dessert, he even had room for the pie. This pleased my heart. The house is extremely hot but it was so worth it.>>Believe51

[Mary Jo]

Today's Joy........Thanking God for this group of angels....for the love and support we receive here and for the laughs and fun we share.

Also, thanking God that Ed had 2 helpings of zita and wanted cherry pie. I'm so happy Ed's days are being "filled" (no pun intended) LOL -with yummy things and wonderful love from you Marie.

[ElaineM]

Now that is great news Marie !!!!!!! The fact that a person has a good appetite and enjoys eating is a joy and a blessing !!!!!!!!

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: ......more pie!!

[juanita]

warmer weather!

[chrisy]

The other day I was walking behind a woman leaving the beach. We exchanged a few words but nothing special, she just seemed like a normal person.

Her cell phone rang and the caller must have asked her how she was - her response was "I'M HAVING THE BEST DAY EVER!!!!"

That made me smile at the time, and still makes me smile!

[Believe51]

Today's Joy: I make sure now more than before cancer came into town, that I always say what is on my mind to Ed.

Tonight as I passed him a beverage and kissed his bald head I told him what a wonderful husband he has always been. Of course I added much more mushy stuff to the conversation and my eyes began to fill.

He looked at me smurking and replied, "I am still here!!" Today's greatest joy was hearing that there is still such a fight in him. His attitude refilled hope in my heart.

Tomorrow is OncoMan's visit. Let's see if I can come back here later and report something good.>>Believe51

[Elke]

It's HOT, HOT,HOT Weather...but I am cooler than all those people with hair!

[Colleens_Husband]

My youngest crewman, Jacob, has always said that he would do anything to go up into the bell tower of the Atkinson Memorial Church which is the oldest Methodist Church west of the Mississippi River.

I recently got a job to survey the church property for a future expansion. Since the church is in a historical district it has to have an architect review to ensure the expansion will match the original church.

Yesterday I got to go out to the job site and I told Jacob that I needed to run the instruments and the data collectors on the final few shots. I handed Jacob the prism pole and told him to follow the curate. Within a few minutes I saw Jacob up in the bell tower and he had a huge grin on his face. He asked if I could take pictures of him up in the tower. He said the view was fabulous and it was even better than he ever hoped it would be.

He spent almost an hour up in the tower and on the way down I overheard him phoning his girlfriend to tell her that he had the best job ever.

I am the boss and I have to send people out into awful weather, terrible brush, and over nasty steep slopes. Being able to make one of my employees' weeks is a rare treat. I almost enjoyed the moment more than Jacob did.

[Colleens_Husband]

I coach a 7th and 8th grade girl's volleyball team. They adopted the name 'Don't Eat Crayons' mostly because they think it is funny to hear the other teams chant "Two! Four! Six! Eight! Who do we appreciate? Don't Eat Crayons!" at the end of the game. I mostly coach for my daughter Ma'ire. It is nice to have an activity that the two of us can share.

Our team hasn't been doing exceptionally well this year. Before today we lost all three of our matches. Not to make excuses, but our team is made up of all 7th graders or girls who have never played volleyball before. What the team has going for them is they are a great group of kids who have good attitudes and they try harder than anybody else.

Today we played the best team in the league. They are all 8th graders and all have played at club level. Before the game, the league director passed out a flyer to all coaches about running up the score and trying to humiliate overmatched teams. I kind of believe that the flyer was aimed at the other team when they played against us.

But a strange thing happened. Nobody told the Don't Eat Crayons team that they were supposed to lose the game. So the girls went out and played harder than anyone can remember 12 and 13 year old girls play. They dove for loose balls and they never gave up. And you know what? They beat the best team in the league! The other team was so upset they didn't give us a cheer and they didn't shake our hands.

Most of the time, life kicks you in the teeth, but you get back up. But if you are lucky, perhaps once in your life, you have a David and Goliath moment when you win one you had no business winning. I am very proud to be their coach, but mostly I am so happy that these girls refused to lose and that they learned that if they work hard and don't give up on themselves, then they can win and overcome remarkable odds.

[StephN]

Love the name Dont Eat Crayons!
BIG SMILE.
I think we ALL munched on one at least a little bit ... I thought it was terrible, spit it out, and never tried it again.

[Believe51]

Todays Joy: Just being alive.....