Fontaine
07-08-2005, 05:49 PM
Fortunately, I'd just finished my paper for my alternative medicine course the weekend before things got bad for Annie. I'd never been able to face it at the end. She was in such pain and the little quality left was swiftly fading from her little life. I couldn't let her go through that, so I took her to the vet two weeks ago Wednesday and stayed with her until she was sedated. Then I had to leave. (I had her cremated so her transformed body is now home.)
I have learned how to keep her spirit with me and she traveled with me to the colloquia I attended for school in Phoenix, restored and healthy in her spirit form. I could even see her swimming in the pool, happy and healthy as could be. Sometimes I felt so comforted by sensing her presence but other times the tears just wouldn't stop.
I met a very spiritual social worker at a party who gave me a book he wrote that's incredible and has helped a lot. It also helped to be away but is so hard losing someone you love so deeply and having to adjust to a totally different kind of relationship--a strictly spiritual one. Steve's book has helped enormously but it's still hard.
In any event, the paper I wrote (received an A so hopefully, it's worth reading) is on alternative mediciine for human and canine breast cancer if anyone's interested. I'll have to ask how and where to upload it for access here. In the meantime, if you'd like a copy, let me know. My e-mail address is sachet m at verizon dot net. (Remove the space between sachet and m and translate the rest and you've got it).
Just had my 3rd chemo treatment yesterday (Stage 1) of Herceptin, Taxotere, and Cytoxin. No side effects except chemo fog and some tiredness. ProBiotics has helped greatly w/ constipation and Nexium is preventing any nausea. Still have hair but it's really starting to thin. Attitude good but losing Annie was very, very hard.
Had to go to hospital while in Phoenix due to nosebleeds. Called my onc who said I could be bleeding internally from low platelets. Doc in ER checked my counts and said they were fine and that it was likely due to going from 90% humidity to 6% and that it happened to a lot of people, but my onc could have been right and better safe than sorry. Whew!
I have learned how to keep her spirit with me and she traveled with me to the colloquia I attended for school in Phoenix, restored and healthy in her spirit form. I could even see her swimming in the pool, happy and healthy as could be. Sometimes I felt so comforted by sensing her presence but other times the tears just wouldn't stop.
I met a very spiritual social worker at a party who gave me a book he wrote that's incredible and has helped a lot. It also helped to be away but is so hard losing someone you love so deeply and having to adjust to a totally different kind of relationship--a strictly spiritual one. Steve's book has helped enormously but it's still hard.
In any event, the paper I wrote (received an A so hopefully, it's worth reading) is on alternative mediciine for human and canine breast cancer if anyone's interested. I'll have to ask how and where to upload it for access here. In the meantime, if you'd like a copy, let me know. My e-mail address is sachet m at verizon dot net. (Remove the space between sachet and m and translate the rest and you've got it).
Just had my 3rd chemo treatment yesterday (Stage 1) of Herceptin, Taxotere, and Cytoxin. No side effects except chemo fog and some tiredness. ProBiotics has helped greatly w/ constipation and Nexium is preventing any nausea. Still have hair but it's really starting to thin. Attitude good but losing Annie was very, very hard.
Had to go to hospital while in Phoenix due to nosebleeds. Called my onc who said I could be bleeding internally from low platelets. Doc in ER checked my counts and said they were fine and that it was likely due to going from 90% humidity to 6% and that it happened to a lot of people, but my onc could have been right and better safe than sorry. Whew!