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Old 08-30-2005, 01:16 PM   #21
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Dear Gina,
You are absolutely incredible! Thank you for your pearls of wisdom and they are indeed pearls.
Yes, the more I go on with this dratted stage iv, the more I begin to feel like a bionic women (or as my kids say; "Wonder women!).
Since I was originally diagnosed, I have found myself on herceptin, involved in the Seattle vaccine trial and now on a raw veggie, vegan diet. Frankly I have never felt better and if it weren't for that darn weekly herceptin, I might even have moments of forgetting !
Oh well, thank you again for your pearls.
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Old 08-30-2005, 05:30 PM   #22
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Kim,

I also live with fear of what life would be like for myself and my 2 kids (13 and 9) without Caryn, but I hang on to the belief that the rules have changed and continue to change dramamtically in short periods of time. I find it helpful to focus on short windows. As an example, within the next 3-5 years how much better will they be able to manage this disease than they are now? I believe significantly. How soon after that will there be a cure? All it takes is ONE discovery!

As a result of all the time I spend researching and reading, I wouldn't be surprised if we're soon faced with an overpopulation problem as a result of all the medical advances that are being made at an astonishing pace. Imagine that!!! It seems that technology has allowed us to accelerate the discovery process so dramatically and so quick that....Live, Love and Be Happy!!!!

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Old 10-22-2005, 12:18 PM   #23
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Thumbs up 4th stage HER-2+ and thriving

Dear Kim,

I've never been on this site before. My husband just found it. I was diagnosed with 4th stage lobular breast cancer in '95. I had extensive mets into the liver in '98 (around when Her-2 was newly discovered and Herceptin was still in clinical trials and unavailable to the general public). 1 month after my 2nd diagnosis, testing 80% positive for HER-2, Herceptin was fast-tracked. I started taxotere w/herceptin in Nov. of '98. Taxotere was every 3 wks through May '99. Herceptin was once a wk, no matter what, for yrs. Since May '99 I have been NED (no evidence of disease). A few yrs ago I began triple the dosage every 3 wks (waiting a year while the new protocol was being tested in France). I now do every 4-month CT scans (chest/abdomen/pelvis) -- graduating from every 8 wks. to every 3 months to this. I continue to show NED. I do ECHO cardiagrams every 6 months, to check for possible heart failure symptoms, due to possible side effects of Herceptin. MY EF (Ejection fraction is above 50, which makes me good to go). I have a small amount of peri-caridial fluid around my heart since Taxotere. That remains stable. The fluid around my lungs from Taxotere disappeared after use. I do pelvic sonograms every 6 months to be told my ovaries are visualized and beautiful. I feel really good. Some dipping of red blood cells (doing CBC blood tests with ea. treatment) -- so I now get Aransesp (which does the job, boosting me and my energy level, and lasts longer than Procrit). I was diagnosed at 50, post-menapausal. Reading the statistics, I was given less than a 15% chance of surviving 2 yrs. I AM A PERSON, NOT A STATISTIC. And besides, "someone" has to fall in that little group! WHO ARE THEY? I BELIEVE THEY CAN BE ME -- AND YOU!! I decided to join that club, emphatically. I meditate, go deep within and connect with a power that activates my natural ability to self-heal. It grants me strength, courage, joy and peace -- knowing, beyond all doubt, that I will survive and thrive, that I am empowered -- and so is EVERY ONE OF US! I live each day full of love. awe and gratitude (for my personal empowerment and for the gift of each new day).

Sending healing energy and prayers... Anxious to hear back from you (noting your posting is not current). BE WELL!

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Old 10-22-2005, 10:12 PM   #24
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Andrea,

I am so inspired about your story. I feel so happy and enrgized when long time survivors like you visit this site and give us courage to go ahead with the life.

Thank you so much,
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Old 10-24-2005, 02:39 PM   #25
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Andi, What an inspiration you are. Thank you for sharing!!
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Old 10-24-2005, 07:12 PM   #26
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Dear Andrea,
Where have you been girlfriend?! You should have joined this web site years ago...with your experience and knowledge; you have a lot to share!


Thank you for sharing your story; I continue to be amazed at the number women who are 5 years years, 6 years, and now you at 10 years survival post mets diagnosis....amazing. I often wonder about what is different; I have to believe that all of us at diagnosis make changes in our lives; spiritual, dietary, and good grief; even our outlook on life...embracing every little stitch of life with joy. And yet; what sets the "winners" apart from the "losers"? I guess we will never know; at least in this life time.

As far as I'm concerned; I think all the women on this web site are winners! Please stay with us Andrea; you are very inspirational and you have alot to share!

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Old 10-29-2005, 03:06 PM   #27
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The VICTORS in Life KNOW they will survive!

Yes, 4th stage breast cancer (since '95), 80% HER-2+, ER- (since mets into liver in '98) and here I am -- joyful and serene! My spiritual journey began long before I realized it. I always believed in the mind/body "phenomenon" (since the '70s, when PBS began explaining startling and awesome results). The idea resonated instantly in me. Then, after being initially scared to death by the stunning reality of having cancer, I quickly rallied. I became full of something far greater than hope. I truly BELIEVED I had the power to heal myself! And so do we all! We have to reprogram our indoctrinated belief system (from society, parents, etc.). Our minds are like computers. They require reprogramming from time to time, updating our belief system to incorporate fresh insights and the natural evolution of thought itself.

When I was hit the 2nd time, I was at first decimated. What had I done wrong? How had I failed? I'd been instructing my body to heal and stay healed! OH. HER-2? What's that? I get it. IT'S RESPONSIBLE FOR 20-30% of breast cancer! It's a defective gene that overproduces a certain protein and causes cancer. That's what ca is -- out of control exponential overproduction of cells. So -- they know what causes "my" kind of BC! That's great. Cause the same doc who discovered all this at UCLA also developed Herceptin -- to CORRECT the defect. (In my mind, it's like insulin for a diabetic.) I know -- being HER-2+ means you have a very aggressive ca. BUT -- they know what's causing MY ca! AND -- they know how to fix it!! I became elated. Herceptin is our magic bullet.

Add to the recipe a totally positive ATTITUDE, belief in your power to heal yourself along w/ certain EXPECTATION -- and you've got a recipe for success. VICTORS/SURVIVORS aren't just lucky. They KNOW they are calling their desired destiny to them. They own that power. And they thank the Universe, God, their Source, their Creator every day for the gift of each beautiful new day and for their personal empowerment!

I meditate -- eyes closed, focusing only on my breath, driving all mental chatter away. (I breath in through my nose, taking in fresh air and new LIFE, hold on for a bit, energizing my SPIRIT, and then exhale, blowing the air out slowly and deliberately through my pursed lips, kissing all negativity goodbye.) I VISUALIZE myself FAR INTO THE FUTURE.

I have lived to see 4 grandchildren born. What a blessing! The 1st was born in '96, 1 year after my initial diagnosis. After '98 (my met into the liver) I knew I had to hold on to be at her wedding! I see myself clearly there, standing, clapping, smiling, looking ebullient, surrounded by my family and friends (as the bride and groom toast on the dancefloor). I live each day with that vision in my heart. I reject those creepy scary thoughts as fast as I possibly can. I embrace my wellness with clear, conscious intent, focusing all my energy on remaining in remission w/NED. I live with my heart open to receive pure Universal LOVE. It fills me up to overflowing. I offer it generously to everyone I meet. No, I didn't talk to strangers for most of my life. NOW, I do. And that love is returned to me tenfold. Friends tell me I am radiant. They stare at my face. They want what I've found.

I pray I've managed to impart the message to YOU.

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Old 10-30-2005, 10:51 AM   #28
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Your post made me cry with joy. Thank you for sharing Andi!
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dx stage I 2/2000*er/pr+; her- per IHC*lumpectomy*4 rounds A/C*30 rads*tamoxifen*dx stage 4 5/2002*huge mets to liver*tiny mets to lungs*stopped tamoxifen*5/02 taxotere/xeloda*her 2 checked with FiSH-her2+++herceptin *2/03 stopped chemo femara w/herceptin*zolodex*04 switched to aromasin w/herceptin*05 high estrogen tx*11/05taxol/carbo*7/06 stopped chemo; megace/herceptin*9/06navelbine/herceptin*5/07tykerb/xeloda great response*4/08 progression in liver; ooph/ faslodex /herceptin
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Old 10-30-2005, 08:26 PM   #29
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I truly salute you survivors. Dr. Dennis Slamon quoted a one year average survival after dx of metastasis of her2neu positive breast cancer vs. 2 year average survival after dx of metastatic her2neu negative breast cancer--that being before herceptin.

Would it be too much trouble to ask each of you who have so generously posted your experiences with Stage 4 her2neu positive breast cancer to identify whether you were ER+ and/or PR+ and how much so?

Dr. Stephanie Jeffrey of Stanford University, a breast surgeon who has given up surgery to devote herself exclusively to research into breast cancer markers, has recently changed the long-held belief that only 10% of her2neu positive tumors are also hormone receptor positive. Her work indicates that it is between 45 and 55%. She also believes by looking at the multigene array results of these tumors that they fall into 3 different groups, each with a different prognosis.

Last week's HERA results were the first to report that Herceptin worked equally well in her2neu+ patients who were hormonal receptor positive as in those who were hormonal receptor negative. Until now, patients who wer both hormone receptor positive and her2neu positive had no statistics to reassure them as to whether they could hope to do as well as the other her2neu positive patients on herceptin.

I was wondering if our subset of patients who contribute to this site could
corroborate this--that is, are there hormone receptor positive patients among those who have beaten the odds and survived with Stage 4 disease and if there are, did your treatment also include antiestrogens or AIs?

We are all so indebted to you for pioneering the way-- thank you for letting us learn the most we can from your experiences !

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Old 10-30-2005, 08:30 PM   #30
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I truly salute you survivors. Dr. Dennis Slamon quoted a one year average survival after dx of metastasis of her2neu positive breast cancer vs. 2 year average survival after dx of metastatic her2neu negative breast cancer--that being before herceptin.

Would it be too much trouble to ask each of you who have so generously posted your experiences with Stage 4 her2neu positive breast cancer to identify whether you were ER+ and/or PR+ and how much so?

Dr. Stephanie Jeffrey of Stanford University, a breast surgeon who has given up surgery to devote herself exclusively to research into breast cancer markers, has recently changed the long-held belief that only 10% of her2neu positive tumors are also hormone receptor positive. Her work indicates that it is between 45 and 55%. She also believes by looking at the multigene array results of these tumors that they fall into 3 different groups, each with a different prognosis.

Last week's HERA results were the first to report that Herceptin worked equally well in her2neu+ patients who were hormonal receptor positive as in those who were hormonal receptor negative. Until now, patients who wer both hormone receptor positive and her2neu positive had no statistics to reassure them as to whether they could hope to do as well as the other her2neu positive patients on herceptin.

I was wondering if our subset of patients who contribute to this site could
corroborate this--that is, are there hormone receptor positive patients among those who have beaten the odds and survived with Stage 4 disease and if there are, did your treatment also include antiestrogens or AIs?

We are all so indebted to you for pioneering the way-- thank you for letting us learn the most we can from your experiences !

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Old 10-31-2005, 12:17 PM   #31
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Hi!

Initially diagnosed in '95 w/4th stage lobular breast cancer. What I felt was a general hardness of my entire breast. Having turned 50 and noting many physical oddities, I just kept checking monthly (and wondering). I never had a lump. Friends who had (benign) lumps and were checked every 6 months by BS told me to look for a hard nodule, like a "marble" or a "pea". Was on heavy dosages of progesterin (to help my peri-menstral heavy bleeding almost non-stop, though I begged for a hysterectomy, hating all surgery but feeling my body was totally out of control). I also suffered from incessant hot flashes which were maddening. They put me on hormone replacement therapy which helped. In retrospect, I still wonder if all that stirred up a hornet's nest.

Had a mastectomy and flam trap reconstructive surgery. (The tumor was so large, they could not save the skin, nor did they bother to shrink the tumor before surgery due to its size.) Had a port implanted, as my veins were impossible to find and collapsed when they were. Did 4 Adriamycin + 8 CMF -- treatments every 3 wks. ER borderline -- they put me on Tomoxifen, hoping I might derive "some" benefit from it.

In Aug. of '98 (after 3 every 3 month blood tests showed a "very slight" elevation in liver enzymes, and after being told by 3 different doctors that it could be coming from anything -- when I questioned the anomaly -- I was consistently told "I wouldn't worry about it. It's very slight.) Finally, I said I am worried about it. I had often questioned why we first liners weren't given continued CT scans (chest/abdomen/pelvis) as during treatment every 8 wks. Not even once a year thereafter. Well, I asked for a liver sonogram. I didn't even know to ask for an "abdominal" sono. I just knew I wanted my liver looked at! The radiologist kept looking and looking and then apologetically said he couldn't be sure what he was looking at and had to recommend I go for a CT scan. The scan showed multiple tumors on my liver. They did a liver biopsy and it was malignant. I was told (by a truly caring but floored doc and father of 3 daughters) that what I had was "Inoperable. Incurable. And you will be on long term chemotherapy for the rest of your life." I was stunned!

Got 5 oncological docs' input. Was told to flush my Tomoxifen down the toilet and never take it again. Was now told I was ER-. I was never given a # to go along w/that. But was told that the drug may have caused my new problem. Was found to be 80% HER-2+. 1 doc said Navolbene. 1 said Taxol. 1 said Taxotere because I had a highly aggressive cancer and that chemo drug was the most aggressive one they had in there arsenal at the time. I tried, but couldn't qualify for Herceptin clinical trials (due to the Adriamycin I'd originally been given). They told me to move fast. Taxotere was showing the best results combined w/Herceptin and it would hopefully become available to ALL. At the time there was a lottery system. Women given 3 months to live w/Her-2+ results were turned away and left to die. The FDA fast-tracked Herceptin and it became available to all of us around 9/30/98. IT WAS A GODSEND! I believe it saved my life.

It was one nasty drug. I had almost all the possible side effects but found myself believing again in my ability to rally and heal myself. I hit rock bottom and then began to soar. Every 8 wk CTs showed a little bit more and more of shrinkage of ea tumor (which were measured ea time precisely). My husband used to take the square root and show me an even rosier pic of my situation. I was slowly but surely getting there. I did Taxotere from Sept. '98. They added Herceptin in Nov. '98. After my May '99 CTs I was told by 2 different radiologists that they believed what they were looking at were the dead remains of tumors (cyst-like). I had no evidence of disease.

I continued Herceptin every wk no matter what (despite low white bld cell #s or anything). I stuck w/the program WEEKLY till Jan. '01 when I began the TRIPLE DOSAGE EVERY 3 WKS (w/clinical trials in France for 1 yr showing the new protocol lost no efficacy). I love this new deal! It's a real treat. Like a holiday. And it allows me to do a bit of traveling. I was getting my Herceptin (in Fla or NY) every single wk without fail. No messing around w/the proven protocol.

I go every 6 months for ECHO cardiograms to check the possible heart failure issue out. I go every 6 months for pelv sonos (in NY, where the radiologist performs the procedure and gets more accurate results, visualizing both ovaries -- digging hard, and decreeing them "beautiful"). In Fla a tech does the probing and a radiologist signs off on the report. Not for me.

By the way -- I know well the subtle signs of docs who know the STATS and look at you as a rare bird. I was treated as "the miracle patient". After a while, it got tedious. My favorite doc tells me he has come to "expect" good results from me. He's proud of me. He sets the bar high and is always encouraging. Friends w/BC who have docs that are at a loss as what to do next depress their patients to the point of being scared to death. Literally. That's not the doc you want. Docs who say you ask too many questions are not the doc you want. Docs who don't call you back the same day are not the doc you want. And though I love ea of my docs and truly believe ea 1 is brilliant -- they each have something different to add to the mix. And it is all invaluable. You want multiple opinions, from docs independent of one another, not doc friends who tend to back up what the other doc said.

Believe in your power to heal yourself. Trust your instincts. Listen to your Inner Voice. Make your intentions clear to your body. Use your thoughts to direct your immune system and all your body parts. You have that power. Fill your thoughts with certainty and positive expectation, and live each day joyful and serene, KNOWING you are going to be a survivor. Command your body to perform. And surround yourself w/positive people who admire your strength and courage. When push comes to shove -- you are so much stronger and braver than ever dared imagine. Reach for grace. And smile. THAT'S WHAT SURVIVORS DO!

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Old 10-31-2005, 07:22 PM   #32
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Way to go. Your message is very inspiring and what I believe is absolutely true.

Thank you for sharing.

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Andi, thank you for lifting my spirits when I needed a boost.

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Old 11-02-2005, 02:38 PM   #34
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Andi,
Your words of up and down and surviving, yearning for life, loving your life and feeling on top of the world are a wonderful gift for us all; thank you for sharing.
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Old 12-19-2005, 10:53 PM   #35
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Hi Kim,

I just read your post...better late than never!
Kim, you've been on the site long enough to know that we only accept the diagnosis and not the prognosis (some one on our site coined this...speak-up because I forgot)
I just came back from SABCS and after meeting Ginger; 10.5 years out of liver mets and is the picture of health and still on herceptin.
There are many of ladies on this board, and I feel safe to say the vast majority, who have beaten the stats. In fact, just recal how many board members we have we lost in 2 years....3 or 4??? Out of 400??? How many have been 5 years out....
There are so many things coming down the pipe, right now stress is your biggest enemy.
Enjoy the holidays, family, your cyber-friends, and try not to worry.
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Old 12-19-2005, 10:59 PM   #36
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Andi, You are truly inspiring...please keep it up and be an example for all to follow.
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Old 01-20-2006, 06:37 AM   #37
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6 690 wiews on this post!

Must be a record?? I think it says all about how important the question is to all of us: How long do I have? So, please post - be a inspiration for others!

Myself I was diagnosed with stage IV in February last year. Mets to liver. After several months with navelbine and herceptin I am now considered NED.
Feeling great, much more hope for the future than one year ago.

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Old 01-20-2006, 12:29 PM   #38
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Hi Toril!

Good for you! The Victors in Life are the ones who KNOW -- WHAT YOU THINK ALL DAY DETERMINES THE OUTCOME. Thoughts are ENERGY. Positive, determined, focused intention and expectation may be wordless thoughts, but they are still MESSAGES sent to your body, at the very least subconsciously, as commands to be followed. I also believe that Energy goes out into the Universe, is sensed and responded to (by some as yet uncodified Universal Law) IN KIND. Strong belief and faith in your ability to heal yourself attracts abundant positive Energy to its source -- the thinker of the thoughts. The mind/body connection is real.

If you feel scared, anxious, concerned -- that is natural. Allow those emotions to be felt,and experienced, and then release them, as fast as you can. CHOOSE to replace them with thoughts full of -- I AM STRONG, BRAVE AND DETERMINED. HEAL. HEAL. HEAL. STAY HEALTHY AND WELL. I AM STABLE. AND GRATEFFUL WITH EACH DAY FOR THE GIFT OF EACH DAY, FOR MY HEALTH AND FOR MY MANY BLESSINGS. Humble appreciation for your PERSONAL EMPOWERMENT is essential. It is the RIGHT THING TO DO. It is full of LOVE!

Consciously remain OPEN to Universal LOVE, which is infinite. Let it fill you up to overflowing. Bring it to every experience you have. Offer it to every one you encounter. It will be returned to you tenfold. I promise.

I just had my every 4 month CT scans, which confirm -- I AM STABLE. I go every 3 wks for a triple dose of Herceptin. This is a spring break/vacation from 3 yrs of going every week. I have an ECHO every 6 mnths, to be certain the moniclonal antibody's toxicity isn't effecting my heart, including my EF (ejection fraction). My body is holding up, after 7+ yrs of Herceptin. I go for pelvic sonos every 6 mnths, to be told my ovaries look beautiful.

I am going to Ca 2/1 to see my daughter, son-in-law and baby Asher turn 2. Pamela is expecting another in July. Since my initial diagnosis ('95) and a recurrence into the liver in '98 (we now know due to my 80% pos HER-2 gene) I have lived to personally greet 3 grandchildren (in Boca) as they drew their first breath (in '96, '99 and '04). I remain confident in my healing powers, which we ALL have, and don't mind that some call me a walking miracle. YOU CAN BE A MIRACLE TOO. You only have to BELIEVE, feed your thoughts and nourish your body with its ideas, vividly see yourself far, far into the future and keep focused on your wellness. (I have chosen to always see myself at my now 9 yr old granddaughter's wedding, blissfully surrounded by family and friends and, of course, much LOVE.)

Sending you love and healing energy... KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK! You're doing a great job!
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Old 01-26-2006, 05:23 PM   #39
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Thank you for this wonderful thread. this was my first time on this site but I have been on Herception for 4 years and have really began to question how long this could go on. So to see some of you on Herception for 9+ years have just made my day. Thnak you for the little piece of hope we all need every day!

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This is dedicated to the HUSBANDS, SONS and DAUGHTERS and SIBLINGS OF BREAST CANCER WARRIORS!

A new friend recently expressed his fear about his mom w/BC 5 yrs ago, HER2+ w/3 nodes involved. He says every single day when he wakes up he is scared about the cancer coming back. I remember, back in '95 when I was first diagnosed, waking each morning, wondering what time it was, did I have any places I needed to be, etc. Then -- BAM! I remembered. I have cancer. And then, I'd think how scary that was, and start letting my mind go wild w/all sorts of imaginings. THEN, I learned to stop doing that. Yes, you have to feel your emotions, even the negative ones, but you must make a conscious effort to replace them w/ thoughts like I HAVE THE POWER TO HEAL MYSELF. I HAVE THE POWER TO NOT BE VICTIMIZED BY MY THOUGHTS. I chose NOT to be haunted and taunted by horrid ideas and visions.

But what I realized when my friend told me about his mom and his being scared all the time, I also remembered thinking, back in '95, that it actually seemed easier to be me, the patient, than to be my husband. If you are the one watching someone you love go through cancer, surgery, chemo, the side effects, the tests and scans and waiting for the results -- you have a great burden that must be recognized! Paul told me that if he could he would take the chemo for me. I honestly believed him. The look of anguish on his face, the look of helplessness was real. He was feeling tormented, vulnerable and scared to death.

Now, I want to tell you something weird. I had learned to stay far from fear, to surround myself, and fill myself up w/, LOVE, compassion, kindness, caring, understanding, forgiveness, awe and humble gratitude. I KNEW that all these feelings were healing (versus feeling fearful, angry, remorseful, worried, anxious and such). I remembered it all from '95 to '98, when the cancer spread to my liver. It took me a bit of time and help to get back on track, but I did it! But, when I was the one watching everything got turned upside down, and I lost the lesson.

Paul and I are dog lovers. We rescued 2 4 mnth old Maltese boys. They were so sick and frightened. We nurtured them. Then Chase, the slightly bigger one, got mange. I had heard of such a thing, but had no idea what it entailed. He looked like a burn victim. He lost all the hair on his face, neck and down his chest. It was scarlet red, raw skin, flaming. It was obviously very painful and itched like mad. 2 vets later, we at least had a diagnosis. Dogs get this illness from their mothers. Mites overtake their immune system, and leave them too weak to walk. He wouldn't eat. Stayed far back in the open wicker house we had by our living room and front door. He wouldn't even drink water. I think he just wanted to die. I was so sad for him. Everytime I looked at him I thought, Oh my God. You're going to die. Look at you. You look horrible, you poor thing. And I'd do my best to coax him out and hold him and pet him. He was flagging, obviously. Then, I reached for the book I'd left on my night stand that the rescue lady had given me, with a tag re nutrition. I wasn't interested. But, in my desperation, I opened the book at random to a page 1/4 in. It was the start of a chapter called THE SPIRITUAL REALM. I had goosebumps. This was MY territory. The Cornell vet had practiced conventional med for 10 yrs and had ventured into HOLISTIC vet med. I read the chapter eagerly and quickly. I was doing everything wrong. THEN, after reading, I would look at Chase and think and say aloud YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. I SEE YOUR SPIRIT AND IT IS GLOWING. I LOVE YOU. AND I'M SENDING OUT POSITIVE ENERGY ON YOUR BEHALF INTO THE UNIVERSE. I am going to stop thinking Oh my God, he could die. I started thinking and saying You are going to be fine. I promise. I'd here for you. And you're going to be all right. JUST LIKE ME! From that moment on, I swear to you, Chase started to walk a little perkier. He took food and water. He played w/his brother, Scamper. And when we went back to the vet, he commented how surprised he was. Why?, my husband asked. Well, when you get a dog that's that sick, you usually don't see them come out of it. (I had purchased to immune boosting vitamins the Cornell vet had mentioned. I had gone to an oncological nutritionist for myself, after all, and take many immune boosting vitamins.) Chase and Scampi are now 4 yrs old. I learned, not only do we have the power to heal OURSELVES, but we can transfer that power to others we love. In fact -- that is what we OWE to those we love. Sending out scary thoughts and vibes is NOT helpful -- to the ones we're worried about OR to ourselves. Negativity corrodes your insides. It is toxic waste, and can actually chemically alter your body and hamper your body's natural ability to stay well and healthy.

I just thought I had to reach out and share this info. It was such a remarkable lesson RE-LEARNED, after I thought I had that one down pat. So think beautiful thoughts of those you love. Release all the scary stuff, because you have to vent, but learn to replace those fears with LOVE. When love fills your heart and your mind, there is no room for fear! HONEST!

With love,
ANDI
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