06-28-2012, 12:38 PM
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Senior Member
Join Date: Oct 2005
Location: LAND OF YES!
w/home in Boca Raton, Florida
Orig from L.I., N.Y.
Ever hovering IN THE NOW...
Posts: 1,904
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THIS IS MY NOW time...!!!!!!!!!!
THIS IS MY NOW time. I am not living on borrowed time. Against all odds, defying the statistics and the thoughts and images in my head -- I am still here.
How? With: The help of my wise and wonderful docs and nurses. Surgery. Chemo. Herceptin. Many supplements taken faithfully and daily since '98. Talking directly to my body and instructing it to specifically, "HEAL! STAY HEALTHY AND WELL. Making my INTENTION and my EXPECTATION clear to both my body and the Universe. Looking up, smiling and saying, THANK YOU FOR MY LIFE, with every single day, several times a day! Using daily meditation and vivid guided imagery (seeing myself far, far into the future, surrounded by the love of family and friends and envisioning myself glowing with joy and serenity). Consciously guided by my Spirit and supported by the Universe itself (in response to the energy I purposely emit throughout each day)...!!!!!!!!
Yes, each is a part of my complex recipe for surviving and thriving.
You can read my story below. Despite 4th stage initially and again 3 years later, despite the necessary losses that came with getting to where I find myself -- I managed to alter what certainly felt like predetermination.
AFTER 10 YEARS OF HERCEPTIN, I HAVE BEEN OFF OF HERCEPTIN SINCE JULY OF '08. I just had comprehensive blood work done and chest/abdomen/pelvic CT scans. I AM STABLE. STILL STABLE. NED. No evidence of disease.
I feel grand. Blessed. So blissful about the path the horrid diagnosis took me on. To a long stirring spirituality I can now affirm with all my heart. I found the most important part of who I truly am.
I AM A SOUL. WITH A MIND AND A BODY. Full of love, compassion, awe, gratitude, forgiveness and almost unwavering positivity. I have my moments. I am human after all. But still, I KNOW that every one of us is connected. A radiant and sacred Spirit, full of eons of wisdom we need to find a way to -- remember.
Once we stop listening to the voice in our heads and begin aligning ourselves with our Inner Voice -- we find grace and ebullience and peace.
This is what I wish you all, my Sisters. I thank each of your loving caregivers for all they do. They keep us buoyed and afloat.
Love and Light, Healing and Wellness,
Andi 
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Andi BB
'95 post-meno dx Invasive LOBULAR w/9cm tumor! YIKES + 2/21 nodes. Clear mammo 10 mnths earlier. Mastec/tram flap reconst/PORT/8 mnths chemo (4Adria/8CMF). Borderline ER/PR. Tamoxifen 2 yrs. Felt BLESSED. I could walk and talk, feed and bathe myself! I KNEW I would survive...
'98 -- multiple mets to liver. HER2+ 80%. ER/PR- Raging, highly aggressive tumors spreading fast. New PORT. 9 mnths Taxotere Fought fire w/fire! Pronounced in cautious remission 5/99. Taxotere weekly for 6 wks, 2 wks off -- for 9 mnths. TALK ABOUT GRUELING! (I believe they've altered that protocol since those days -- sure hope so!!)
+ good old Vit H wkly for 1st 3 yrs, then triple dosage ev 3 wks for 7 yrs more... The "easy" chemo, right?! Not a walk in the park, but not a freight train coming at 'ya either...
Added Herceptin Nov '98 (6 wks after FDA fast-tracked it for met bc). Stayed w/Vit H till July '08! Now I AM FREE! Humbly and eternally grateful for this life-saving drug! NED since '99 and planning on keeping it that way. To hell w/poor prognosis and nasty stats! STOPPED VIT H JULY '08...! REMAIN STABLE... Eternally grateful...Yes is a world & in this world of yes live (skillfully curled) all worlds ... (e e cummings) EVERY DAY I BEAT MY PREVIOUS RECORD FOR # OF CONSECUTIVE DAYS I'VE STAYED ALIVE. Smile KNOWING you too can be a miracle. Up to me and God now...
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