~Okay, 30 Minute Conversation and I Don't Understand A Word!!!!!

[Tom]

Dearest Marie,

I have had many periods when I was sure there was no God, because I didn't think he could be so cruel. Then I remembered all of the times in the past where I thought the same thing, only to realize and then completely understand what He was up to when I doubted Him. You will only find peace when you release your will to Him. Let Him handle this, as only He knows how. I know this is a brutally horrible time for you, but you must have faith. Just because things don't go the way WE planned them, doesn't mean that they aren't being handled. When this is over, your faith and your God will be the only things that enable you to go on living. Trust me, I know.

As far as having a conversation with Ed, just look him in the eyes and know that he knows exactly what you are saying, and will "speak" to you in other ways. He needs you now more than ever. Take a break, then sit with him and be his comfort. God will be on one side and you on the other. You are both almost to the finish line with all of this. I envy Ed for having someone like you, and for getting to go home before I do. We'll all get there, in His time not ours. I send you both much love.