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Hitting the wall
Chemo #4 tomorrow and have done very well up to now. Loathing everything about the next two weeks and feeling bad that many of us have bigger battles than some aches and pains from TCH.
My mother came to my work this week to see for herself that I was doing OK after a melt-down when my sister called over the weekend (I've always been strong).
I should feel lucky that I GET to fight this with so much ammunition. I even ran a couple days this week thinking this was my recovery week. But I hate that I can't in a couple days and people will be asking how I am because I look so crappy again. I did not recognize myself in the mirror a week ago.
It's the damn unknown! Thanks for listening.
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Julie
Live in Orange County, CA
Diagnosed with DCIS Oct. 2012
Bilateral Dec. 19, 2012
IDC, ER/PR-, Her2+++, Grade 3
Stage IIIa
15.6 cm
4/14 nodes + macrometastases
First thing each morning, I try on my bathing suit. Then, nothing worse can happen the rest of the day.
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