Reflecting and sad

[rinaina]

As I celebrate being fortunate enough to be cancer free for an amazing 8 years, I am so sad to think of all the wonderful angels we have lost over that short period of time. For quite a while I had to take breaks, long breaks before checking in because I couldn't bare to read about another loss. After Kristine and Shiela, (both hit not just me but all that knew them very hard), I was depressed. I had the pleasure of spending time with both of these courageous and brave women who didn't have time to wallow in pity or complain. They were, along with many others, some of the strongest people I knew. They had the best attitudes and outlooks as well. I don't know how to deal with the holes left in my heart other then to help others which I hope I am doing enough of.