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[fullofbeans]

Hi all,

Wishing you all a lucky New Year!

In a turn of situation it appears that my tumours where not growing as fast as initially thought (wrong measuring in the october scan of the tumours..crazy!) and was able to convinced them that I should have surgery (initially declined).

The right lung was operated on in mid december:
Yes surgeons are pessimist gore and I was told upon waking up that they nearly closed me up when they went in as It had spread to the chest wall and that one of my rib was at breaking up point. I was also told that they pelled off a tumour attached to the 1st to the 3rd rib.. and that they did not think they would bother do the left side of my lung.

However as it turned out the histology report was rather positive and said that the chest wall had not been invaded and that all the margins were clear!

I was called a few days ago to say that if the left side lung tumours are behaving they would be the left side too.

this would mean that cancer would be gone from my vital organs and therefore give me much more extra time for the miracle HER2+ breakthough drug to come through for us all..

Truth I am tired, exhausted in fact, I feel battered and I think I am also quite depressed since the treatments and feeling sh*t as been my lot in the last 2 years. My puppy is doing a good job to get me out of the house every day for a lovely walk which keeps me afloat along with her lovely company. I have become rather sensitive and afraid of pain after being poked inside so many times. Lung surgery was particularly painful I found. I hope that I (and many of us) can have a break from painful and toxic treatment in the near future. I know I should be more grateful at the turn of situation the thing is I have become cynical and I am aware that we have not checked other areas such as my brain (2yrs my last scan)..truth I do not even want to ask for a scans, I know I should be hopeful but instead I have become quite detached to the outcome.

All love