Ugh, Aflac Insurance woman brings tears.

linn65 · 03-12-2013, 07:11 AM

Okay, Monday after a rough weekend of emotion, I pulled it together and had a good day.

Today is Tuesday, and I have been at my job for 16 years and the Aflac woman comes in every year to ask if anyone wants cancer, heart, accident or hospitalization insurance. EVERY year I declined it because NEVER did I think I would need it.

Anyway, I went ahead and signed up for the Heart insurance because I never thought I would get breast cancer, so I want to be proactive in case of heart trouble. If I would have had the Cancer policy it would have been HUGE for me financially and eliminated a worry.

But when going through all the questions and signing up for the heart part of insurance I can feel the emotion just well up inside, and I try to breathe and be okay. When really I want to cry, and I want to cry hard.

I don't know if its because I have herceptin tomorrow or what. It just seems like one of those days I could sit at my desk and cry all day. I HATE THIS!! I hate what cancer has done to me. This emotion feels like when you are really in love with someone and you break up. Your heart aches, and you cry, wonder if you will ever get over them.

Praying for this to pass.....

lkc Gumby · 03-12-2013, 10:25 AM

Hi There I am sorry you are having a rough time. I did too. But I want you to know these feelings are normal. We have all been there. second guessing decisions, and worrying about what ifs, and what will happen. I used to call it going to the " dark side".
It's all part of the BC crap.
However, if you are losing sleep, not eating properly, and not functioning MOST of the time, you probably need to get on some short term meds. ( It helped me)

Either way I promise you bit by bit, you will get you life back and this will be a memory.

Take Care and God Bless.

NanaJoni · 03-12-2013, 10:30 AM

Linn- it really is a grieving process. You have lost the person you were before bc and cancer takes so many things away from you. As hard as it is, it's normal and really does get better with time. Easy words to say but hard to live. Thinking about you and hoping it gets better.

'lizbeth · 03-12-2013, 04:00 PM

Linn65,

I was at a new job for less than 3 months when I got diagnosed. I didn't qualify for obtaining disability insurance until I'd been at the company longer. Good plan on the heart insurance. I didn't realize they had that.

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starwishn2 · 03-12-2013, 11:01 PM

I know how you're feeling. I have been so emotional for so long - I actually think I've been depressed. How could we not?

I have discovered recently that my emotions have become less easily triggered as time and treatments go by. I figure I have about 8 or 9 more Herceptin treatments left. My hair is coming back and I'm starting to feel more like myself. My point is - as much as I never thought it would happen - things are getting better.

As a side note, don't feel too bad about not getting AFLAC. They have not paid a penny on my policy. I have been "fighting" with them since last August.

Hang in there!!
Jeri

Jackie07 · 03-13-2013, 02:00 AM

Get yourself an attorney (check with your local 'legal Aid' for a free consult with a lawyer)

Contact the office of your representatives, Congressmen and Senators. They have staff handling this type of requests. Even if you don't have a case, they might know other resources that can help you.

Unless it's a non-profit, insurance companies will try everything to avoid paying out claims.

Before my 1990 brain (tumor)surgery, I couldn't get past the receptionist on the other side of the phone to talk to anyone in my insurance company about making a special contract (to have my surgery done locally in a hospital that was not a member of the HMO network covered by the insurance company). Finally, my boss located the vice president who was in charge of 'sprcial contracts' and hinted that my doctors were mentioning about lawsuit. (Actually my boss was the one who'd found me a lawyer and videotaped my testimony just in case ...)

When the roof of our house was leaking (directly above our bed!) after a storm, our local insurance agent told us we would get half the roof repaired after an adjustor had checked it out. My husband went to the agent's office and chewed him out! We'd been paying premiums for almost 20 years for the house besides several other policies with the company. The agent sent another adjustor to check the roof again and we were 'granted' a new roof after paying the deductable.

Never, never, never give up ...

Jean · 03-16-2013, 01:00 PM

Lynn,
Of course you feel like crying - we have all been there, done that and did not win the T shirt. It's perfectly normal.
This is still all new for you. There are many levels to this journey of breast cancer. Besides coping emotionally there is the real hard facts of medical bills.

Have got to love that Jackie, she is a real spit fire with facts, numbers, etc. Love her story about the roof.
It is so true, "never give up" push back harder and get
someone who gave offer advise for the results you need.

If the depression continues ask the dr. for medication to help you to get past this rough time.

Please know that many of us are here for you and we have all been there ourselves. I promise it does get better - but that means time. Time to adjust, time to learn the best way that works for you to cope. As you move forward and treatment is behind you will begin to feel stronger.

Sending you a huge hug.
Jean

Mary Jo · 03-17-2013, 02:33 PM

I cried and cried and cried. I remember saying to my husband after 2 weeks of crying...."will I ever stop crying? Will I ever be happy again?" I am a 7 year survivor. I have stopped crying and am happier than ever before. Hang in there. You are normal and this is all huge EMOTIONALLY and every other way. God Bless you sweet lady....with His peace.