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Old 02-27-2012, 02:35 PM   #1
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Horrible anxiety about upcoming scan....

Hi everyone...I have a chest ct coming up next week to monitor a lung nodule I posted about previously....my anxiety is just awful. I actually have had anxiety my whole life and this whole ordeal has been so difficult for me mentally....I have done everything I can think of....walking, deep breathing, meditation, massage, meds.....nothing really helps. I'm so scared that this stupid nodule is going to be something....it's all I think about. I've told myself I have two roads to choose from: faith or fear. I know the one I want to travel, but my mind keeps going down that dark and twisty road!!
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Old 02-27-2012, 03:10 PM   #2
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Re: Horrible anxiety about upcoming scan....

Hi ggmom! You may have noticed that I left some footprints ahead of you on that dark and twisty road! We all detour there at one time or another.
But it can be such wasted energy to dwell on the unknown or project the worst. There will be plenty of time to do that if indicated. As I told someone earlier, just because something lights up on a scan does not make it cancer. Myself and many others have been in that same spot. Scans are sensitive and pick up all sorts of things that are benign.
I might suggest that you try a different anti anxiety med. Have you taken Ativan? I found it helpful to get through stressful times.
I have been told that the mind can only be thinking of one thing at a time. So make it something positive. Keep the faith
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Old 02-27-2012, 03:39 PM   #3
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Re: Horrible anxiety about upcoming scan....

If you are a praying person you might try a short, simple prayer you say over and over again, half on inhale and half on exhale. The classic Christian "breath prayer" or "heart prayer" is the "Jesus Prayer." It is: "Lord Jesus Christ, son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner." Say it over and over again--100's of times a day if need be. I think any similar phrase that fits your beliefs could be substituted if you're not a Christian.

It might also help if you get outside in the sun and get some fresh air.

It's hard to calm the mind, but it's a good skill to learn.

Good luck!
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3/11/13 CT Scan--two small new possible mets and odd looking area in left lung getting larger.
4/2/13--Biopsy of suspicious area in lower left lung. Mets to lung confirmed.
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8/16/13 PET scan "mixed," with some areas of increased uptake, but also some definite improvement, so I'll stay on TDM-1/Kadcyla.
11/11/13 Finally get hormone receptor results from lung biopsy of 4/2/13. My cancer is no longer ER positive.
11/13/13 PET scan mixed results again. We're calling it "stable." Problems breathing on exertion.
2/18/14 PET scan shows a new lesion and newly active lymph node in chest, other progression. Bye bye TDM-1.
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6/8/14 PET "mixed," with no new lesions, and everything but lower lungs improving. My breathing is better.
8/18/14 PET "mixed" again. Upper lungs & one spine met stable, lower lungs less FDG avid, original tumor more avid, one lymph node in mediastinum more avid.
9/1/14 Begin taking Xeloda one week on, one week off. Will also stay on Herceptin and Perjeta every three weeks.
12/11/14 PET Scan--no new lesions, and everything looks better than it did.
3/20/15 PET Scan--no new lesions, but lower lung lesions larger and a bit more avid.
4/13/15 Increasing Xeloda dose to 10 days on, one week off.
7/1/15 Scan "mixed" again, but suggests continuing progression. Stop Xeloda. Substitute Abraxane every 3 weeks starting 7/13.
10/28/15 PET scan shows dramatic improvement everywhere. All lesions except lower lungs have resolved; lower lungs noticeably improved.
12/18/15 Last Abraxane. Continue on Herceptin and Perjeta alone beginning 1/8/16.
1/27/16 PET scan shows cancer is stable.
5/11/16 PET scan shows uptake in some areas that were resolved on the last two scans.
6/3/16 Begin Kadcyla and Tykerb combination
6/5 - 6/23 Horrible diarrhea from K&T together. Got pneumonia.
7/15/16 Begin Kadcyla only every 3 weeks.
9/6/16 Begin radiation therapy on right lung lesion that caused the pneumonia.
10/3/16 Last of 12 radiation treatments to right lung.
11/4/16 Huffing and puffing, low O2, high heart rate, on tiniest bit of exertion. Diagnosed as radiation pneumonitis. Treated with Prednisone.
11/11/16 PET scan shows significant improvement to radiated part of right lung BUT a bunch of new lung lesions, and the bone met is getting worse.
11/22/16 Begin Eribulin and Herceptin. H every 3 weeks. E two weeks on, one week off.
3/6/17 Scan shows progression in lungs. Bone met a little better.
3/23/17 Lung biopsy. Tumor sampled is ER-, PR+ (5%), HER2+++. Getting Herceptin and Perjeta as a maintenance treatment.
5/31/17 Port placement
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Old 02-27-2012, 03:50 PM   #4
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Re: Horrible anxiety about upcoming scan....

Hubby has been taking anxiety meds for a while. He has found the daily 30-45 minute walk (prescribed by his cardiologist) really helps.

Talking to friends/family about your anxiety also may help. Coming to the Board to share your feeling is an important first step. You can also try write your feeling down in a word file or a piece of paper. Just pour it all out - the process itself often helps me to calm down.

Knowledge is power. Check out the 'calling all stage IV sisters' thread and read about their triumph stories. I get encouraged by them - knowing that (just in case) even a metastasis is manageable/treatable.
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Old 02-28-2012, 02:58 PM   #5
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Re: Horrible anxiety about upcoming scan....

I have to echo Bonnie's comments but also agree with Jackie on walking being beneficial and relaxing.
However it does'nt stop you worrying and when I faced a scare two years ago I went through the same stress but tried to convince myself I could'nt change the results so opened my mind to accept any news!!
Its not easy and my thoughts and good wishes are with you
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