Not the news i had hoped for

[Sheila]

Thank you all for the birthday wishes....you are all in my thoughts each day although I find it hard to post with all going on.
My Mother turned 82 the 27th, we had a surprise birthday party for her....it was bittersweet as she looked very frail and sad. Today she was admitted to the hospital again due to low blood sugar, confusion and lethargy....until all the tests come back, they dont know if its diabetic blood sugar issues, the liver cancer, another stroke...she has all but stopped eating looks overwhelmed. My Dad continues to have cardiac issues...partially stress i think from all going on.

I had my CT yesterday, the results were not what I had hoped. Only slight decrease in the mediastinal mass that is compressing the pulmonary artery and left bronchus, a few new areas of growth and a large pericardial effusion...guess that explains why i am still short of breath. I see the oncologist next Tuesday and will see what is next on the horizon for me....I would have thought that the pericardial effusion would have shown up on the echo a couple weeks ago, but nothing was said.....wish it was just the leakage from my implant! Getting it drained does not seem like a fun adventure from what I've read....
I keep hoping for my miracle...in this lifetime would be nice. I am sick and tired of the cancer fairy hanging out in my body!
Love to all of you!