Thank you all for such wonderful replies.
I know I'm just being impatient and need to get back to finding the joy in each day even if its a different joy than I'm used to.Looking back at 6 months ago I couldn't have immagined doing half the things I'm doing now just think what another 6 months will do!
Before BC I used to ride horses almost every day.Today I went riding for the first time since diagnosis.It was wonderful.It was the first time in a long time I was riding just for the fun of it.Somehow between your responces and getting out there and riding it made me feel at peace with the beast(BC).
Thanks again, Alice