Self image--here we go again

[Sherry in WV]

It is hard enough battling stage IV cancer for 4 years (thank God I have had this much time). Years ago, 51 to be exact, I had a Wilms Tumor and had my right kidney removed. I was lucky then, too, 98% of kids who had Wilms back then died. No chemo only high dose radiation.
Anyway in Jan of this year starting having problems with painand bleeding when I urinated. Had a stent placed. I bleed even more, so they took stent out.
Then had severe pain. Back in hospital in Feb. They did cysto and said my urter was full of clots. Stent back in. Same senario in March. This time everything seemed to be fine. Then end of May I got an urinary tract infection. Stent changed, now I have severe pain all the time and bleeding all the time.
Went to specialist in Pittsburgh, he said I need a ureostomy. My urerter was damaged all those years back when I had radiation, but is just now raising it's ugly head. It is bad enough all the things that comes with cancer and treatments. I look older than I am, I have lost muscle mass and have skin hanging everywhere, ect..... Now to think that I have to wear a bag on the outside of my body to drain my urine into. Well, I am really having a problem with this one.
Self image is at an all time low.
YUK
Sherry