brain mets

theank you all for you input on brain mets.
I am weaning off decadron 4 mgs, per day, now after 3 mgs., 2 mgs. for four days. Started wrb thursday and onc. tries to get me oxygen/hemoglobin booster sri efaproxin. Like I said, I have had really bad news lately, no doctor has given me hope except for the two that have not seen my mri. We had a appt. in LA and that was a big disappointment, very clinical and not at all hopeful. It was very stressful. I am up on stuff bt always waiting for novel or new news. you know around here they go by the book so it is reallty not thinking out of the box. why not ? i'm a human guinia pig anyway. what am i--afraid to die?
i am finding that my friends are a little scared and i don't want to "press" them into service yet again. they avoid me and i don't blame them--i used to avoid sick people too because it reminded me of my mortality. well, abour brain mets...lets get down to business and quit the feeling sorry thing...any news , encouragement. but mainly hard-core treatments are appreciated.