I am in need of encouragement

[Tracy]

I am in need of encouragement, I am so down and depressed. I cry all the time, I am in full blown chemopause and feel like there is no end in sight. I am terrified of being her2+...I don't know why it scares me so much. Does it ever get easier? I am on A/C #3, been 5 days. I have been crying for 2 days now. Everything makes the tears come. I just keep seeing that her2+ has a worse prognosis. I am 36 with 2 children and am not going to leave them. I refuse to ever give up this fight. I am just so scared sometimes.

I used to feel so strong in the beginning of this journey, I know I am still in the beginning....I have 1 A/C, then 12 weekly Taxol, then Herceptin for a year, plus rads, I have a long road yet ahead of me. I know I can do it, I just feel like I am falling apart sometimes.