Need some inspiration

[Westcoastgirl]

Hello everyone,
It has been some time since I last posted. I have visited from time to time but have been staying away, trying not to think about breast cancer. What a silly ninny, hey! How can one so immersed in bc treatment not think about it. I have two more chemo treatments to be finished chemo but was surprised to hear I had radiation to look forward to after chemo. I have to admit it does feel like I will be on this road forever. I have been able to remain in good spirits but am finding it is harder and harder with each passing day. I read here about women changing their lives, trying hard to beat this cancer but here I am feeling like I cannot move forward, legs as heavy as cement, my mind vacant. I suppose it is normal for our moods to go up and down but golly this is tough to manage. My husband seems to find it harder than me and has suffered much with anxiety. I on the other hand have been a brick throughout, now suddenly close to the end of chemo I am finding the facade is cracking and I am not a brick any longer. I would like to hear that I am feeling normal emotions and that the lows are a place to rebound from. Thanks, Carolyn