Just want to vent about the secondary nurse..
Well maybe it is because she sees people facing death, scan results ect.. all the time but I am fed up with her comments which goes like:
"you see nothing to worry about" or "well next time you will worry about something else" she is belitering my fear at scan results as if I was completely silly to worry about it, I happen to think that worring is normal for everyone and being stage 4 and having well over 90% to recur well one would worry no?
I feel like puching her each time but have to be nice because well I am in the UK so to get scans I need to get on with the team..
She even told me once that I was lucky (yes she did use the word lucky) that I did not have children, it made me cry later because yes I am so lucky that I will never be able to have children (I had always wanted some) and have my family, great no? what a stupid stupid woman. I know it must be very hard with children but being told that you are lucky not to have children when I see that cancer has stolen this huge aspect of my life not as quite "lucky"..
Just wanted to vent...
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35 y/o
June 06: BC stage I
Grade 3; ER/PR neg
Her-2+++; lumpectomies
Aug 06: Stage IV
liver mets: 6 tumours
July 06 to Jan 07: 2*FEC+6*Taxotere; 3*TACE; LITT
March 07- Sept 07: Vaccination trial (phase 2, peptide based) at the UW (Seattle).
Herceptin since 2006
NED til Oct 09
Recurrence Oct 2009: to internal mammary gland since October 2009 missed on Oct and March 2010 scan.. palpable nodes in May 2010 when I realised..
Nov 2011:7 mets to lungs progressing fast failed hercp/tykerb/xeloda combo..
superior vena cava blocked: stent but face remains puffy
April 2012: Teresa Trial, randomised to TDM1
Nov 2012 progressing on TDM1
Dec 2012 blockage of my airways by tumours, obliteration of these blocking tumours breathing better but hoping for more- at mo too many tumours to count in the lungs and nodes.
Dec 2012 Starting new trial S-222611 phase 1b dual egfr her2+ inhibitor.
'Under no circumstances should you lose hope..' Dalai Lama
Last edited by fullofbeans; 02-09-2009 at 07:08 AM..
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